The Eternal Heart: Fragile Package 5

I was aware of how to take lives out of existence, but bringing new life into the world wasn’t something I was familiar with. I was used to dying people screaming, but I wasn’t used to helping them give birth. I’m not a medic, though I am passable. I usually depended on another comrade to help the injured and dying.

Hell, Katherine was the medic everyone liked to get when they could.

I, on the other hand, was just a killer.

“Katherine!” I shouted. “Breathe in and out!”

I should’ve replied calmer, but I was frightened. Katherine would be alive and John would continue to be with her. How could I tell him I had hoped that she had died?

No matter now, I had to focus on helping her deliver.

Katherine was struggling and I had to try and keep her still. She had injuries from the chopper crash and I didn’t want to imagine the pain she was going through now. I thought of tying her up to keep her still but I finally decided to ditch the idea. I didn’t want to stop circulation and I wouldn’t be able to do it quickly enough anyways.

The last thing I wanted was for John’s offsprings to plop onto the floor like discarded items.

“I...I...I can’t!” Katherine said, but part of her wouldn’t quit wanting to give birth.

“Give birth first and then die.” I hissed, but she wouldn’t stop yelling.

Dammit, this was not going to work. Katherine would die and the twins would die and then I would have to watch John try to not fall apart. This was not going to be a good day at all. Even if the twins were born without being injured themselves, the fact was that I would be in the middle of nowhere with a dying woman and two newborn children.

I didn’t know how I managed, but I helped Katherine birth the twins. My hands were ready for both when they came out. Neither of them were terrified of my metal poking out. I knew that they were way too young to feel fear from seeing it, but there was always a chance that a fear of metal was an instinct. I guess that wasn’t true.

“Can I see them?” Katherine asked me, her voice sounding weak.

“Sure.” I replied and handed each of them to her carefully.

“What do you want to name them, John?”

“Shouldn’t the mother decide?” I asked her and I saw that she had fallen asleep before I could finish the question.

I looked at the twins and shook my head. They looked like weird little aliens from Mars and yet it was my duty to take care of them for now.

I sighed and took them both in my arms as I looked for some place to wash them. There was a sink and some of the water I had left would allow me to bathe them for the first time. I was alert at all times as I washed them so as not to hurt them.

This was hard to do as they struggled and I was afraid I would inadvertently kill them which would piss John off. Thinking of John made me able to do a better job than I would have without him in my mind.

After I finished bathing them, I took random bits of clothing to cover them up. When we got back to base they could get real clothing and real help.

As I put the twins next to Katherine I realized I couldn’t wait. I needed to find a radio so that Katherine could be taken care of.

For over an hour I made sure that Katherine would be fine if left alone for a few hours at least. I had to go around the area to find a radio. I had no other choice if we wanted to survive.

As I looked at them for what could be the last time, I smiled at the twins and Katherine’s sleeping form before walking away.

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Now You See Me, Now I'm In You 3

-This is a Mature Story (if in content if not plot)
-It's a Now You See Me/Animorphs fanfic
-It's a Dylan Rhodes fanfic

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Tobias and Me 8

The plan was about to be set into motion. I was nervous as I was the one in charge. Jake was the one who should be commanding both Cat and myself, but he wasn’t here. It was just me and Cat on an alien world far from home.

Ready? I asked her.

Yes. Cat replied, trying not to show how nervous she was.

I looked down at the Hork-Bajir and wondered how to draw them out. For now we weren’t in their eyesight, but that would change very quickly. In a few minutes we would have had to made our move or fail.

Stay behind me and wait for a Hork-Bajir to leave the rest of the group. I told her. Or make a distraction somehow to attract one. Just don’t sound too human.

With that I flew away from her. I thought of how to attract the group’s attention. Yelling? Attacking them? Just showing that I existed? But how to also have it so that one wouldn’t join the others in chasing me?

I didn’t have time for subtlety and dove down while letting my hawk beak screech. This attracted all the Hork-Bajir and they pointed their Dracon beams upward.

I flew back up to try to escape getting killed, but a few tail feathers were singed in the process. Wow! Holy shit! That was beyond stupid. I turned around and tried to see if at least one Hork-Bajir was gone. Nope, they were still all there.

I swooped and tried to lead them around. Hoping, all the while, that Cat would somehow lead a Hork-Bajir away from the group. I had to continually dodge enemy fire as they didn’t let up an inch. They kept firing away and I kept trying not to die.

If I was injured and had to morph to fight them, then I would have to kill all of them. I couldn’t do that even if I tried. And what if any of them called back to base to tell the other Yeerks about me before they died? No, morphing something like a Hork-Bajir to fight them wasn’t an option at this point.

Probably should have done that before I did what I was doing now.

But I couldn’t change plans now. I flew up and checked how many Hork-Bajir there were. Yes! One was missing! Now all I had to do was lose the Hork-Bajir and go back to Cat.

Which was really easier said than done.

I saw a thick group of trees and lead the Hork-Bajir there. Every flap of my wings had me dodging Dracon beams. When I got them to where I wanted them, part of my wing was shot and I wobbled in the air.

I steadied myself and found myself able to fly away, but I kept flying lower and lower.

Tobias, I did it! He’s knocked out! I acquired him! Cat shouted and I could tell that she had been repeating the same thing for awhile now.

Good! I said and looked around for her.

You’re hurt. Cat said softly as I landed by her on the ground.

I’ll be fine. I reassured her. Morphing only affects DNA so this isn’t permanent. You need to demorph to acquire him.

Cat was silent for a minute. In that time I was able to reflect on a few things. The fact was that she really did care for me. The way she had acted when she saw me made that clear. It wasn’t just the care you gave someone rescuing you, it was something more. Or was that just me? Was that only what I was hoping she was feeling?

The other thing was more physical.

The others were right that my usual look nowadays seemed like I was always about to murder someone. While I knew that Cat cared about me, how she was looking at me seemed deadly no matter her intention. How did the others deal with that look?

I already acquired him. Cat finally said. I just morphed so that I could communicate with you. You didn’t answer for awhile.

Thought-speak has limited range. I explained. I was out of range.

I’m going to demorph, will you look away?

If the Controller wakes up I’ll need to know. Sorry.

Cat just nodded and demorphed. I was highly embarrassed of having to look at her while she demorphed. She was a good looking woman, but she didn’t want me looking at her. I was intruding. If she had wanted me to look at her it would’ve been an entirely different matter. I would’ve been enjoying myself, to say the least.

To distract myself from this awkward moment I kept a careful eye on the Hork-Bajir. I was ready to attack him if need be. I couldn’t morph a Hork-Bajir quickly enough, but I could give Cat a chance. Luckily the Controller didn’t move.

I breathed a sigh of relief after five minutes of waiting for her to morph again.

You sure you’re up for that much morphing in a short amount of time? I asked.

“I don’t have a choice.” Cat said as she finished her morph. “Wow.”

Calm mind. I said as I started to morph a Hork-Bajir.

I seemed to fly upwards as I grew. I gave a sigh of relief when I saw that my wound had healed. I knew that was going to happen, but I was still happy about it.

“So what are we going to do about him?” Cat asked and pointed to the Controller when I had finished morphing.

I looked around and then started cutting into a tree. I made a nice little hole in the tree that would be nearly perfect for the Controller.

“So we’re just going to put the body into the tree until he wakes up?” Cat asked and I cringed.

“You don’t have to watch if you don’t want to.” I said slowly.

“Watch you kill him.”

I nodded slowly. It wasn’t like it was an option I wanted. I didn’t want to kill an innocent being, but the Controller would say what he had seen and that couldn’t happen.

“It’s us or them.” Cat said in disgust.

“You don-“ I began.

“Yes I do.” She said and then helped me slit the Hork-Bajir’s throat and stuff him in the tree.

It was in this moment that I wanted Cassie to be there to stop us. For her to tell us that we were wrong for doing this. But she wasn’t.

As some blood dripped down my arm I looked at Cat’s Hork-Bajir face. She didn’t deserve this. She didn’t deserve to have any of this happen to her. Without meaning to, I touched her face and she looked into my eyes. I tried to show, with a look alone, how sorry I was for her.

Cat put one of her hands on my face and we stood like that for a few minutes.

“We should go back home now.” I told her.

She nodded and we put our hands by our sides.

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Jash Talks: Omar and Pushing Daisies

Avexle and myself talk about Hannibal being renewed and everything gets derailed by him talking about Pushing Daisies.

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The Wizard and Quest Points

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The Wizard is the newest quest giver to hand out QuestPoints. With these QuestPoints you can now buy stuff from his own QuestPoint shop.

I am happy about this as I really don't do any other questions besides The Wizard. Well...for the most part. I also do quests for Major Drills, Shinwa, and Battle Quests.

So I am really happy that the guy I go to for Quests the most is FINALLY handing out QuestPoints!

Now You See Me, Now I'm In You 2

-This is a Mature Story (if in content if not plot)
-It's a Now You See Me/Animorphs fanfic
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Shipping Confessions: Ryan Hardy/Mike Weston (The Following)

I don't watch many non-sci-fi or fantasy shows. Mostly I watch shows like Doctor Who or Continuum. Hardly is there a show that goes outside my usual fare that I watch. The Following is one of those rare shows that makes me go outside my usual fares.

It deals with a cult leader, Joe Carrol, escaping and then causing chaos.

The ship I will be focusing on this time is will be Ryan Hardy and Mike Weston. One cop that has an obsession with Joe while Mike is learning from the man.

We'll start off with Ryan Hardy.

Ryan Hardy was the one to catch Joe Carrol. At the beginning of the series Ryan is an alcoholic and I don't believe he had been working with the FBI for awhile. Or at least he wasn't stable. By Season 2 he isn't an alcoholic but still has his obsession with Joe Carrol continues.

Ryan's obsession with catching Joe forms the basis of his personality.

Ryan is also an agent who bends rules when it suits him. He has a sense of morality, but it seems he is always toeing the line. It's like Ryan will cross the line into a villain at the drop of the hat. Luckily that isn't the case.

Unfortunately Ryan's actions in Season 1 fuels Mike Weston to toe the line.

Mike Weston and Ryan quickly form a bond. Mike picks up lessons from Ryan and that really helps fuel for the character change in Season 2.

In Season 2 Mike lets out his darker actions. While in Season 1 Mike was able to curb his own desires and hold back Ryan, in Season 2 it is Mike who needs to be restrained. He starts to get more violent when he beats up one of the twins and then derails when he kills Gray.

Gray's death is one tense scene where I was hoping and dreading what was going to happen. Afterwards, Mike seems to recover himself but it will be interesting to see how he reacts in Season 3 after Season 2's events.

Ryan and Mike's relationship is one that forms rather quickly. As time goes on Mike uses Ryan's actions as excuses for his own. He points out that Ryan does something and therefore he can. This is a very childish thing to claim. In Season 2 it allows Mike to justify doing certain things.

When Mike's father is murdered he breaks down. Ryan does what he can to comfort the man. I think this is because Ryan knows what Mike will do if he allows his emotions to get the better of him. It is Ryan's own obsession that allows him to be sympathetic to what Mike is going through. Ryan knows how an obsession can get the better of you and slowly destroy your life.

Mike and Ryan are able to feel for each other even when they disagree. In the beginning of Season 2 Mike is especially hurt when Ryan doesn't open up to him. During Season 1 they developed such a closeness to each other that it is hard for him to fathom that closeness going away.

Ryan and Mike truly seem to care for each other and they work well as a team. With 2 Seasons of The Following, they have gone through ups and downs while improving their techniques. This show would never feel complete if one or the other died. And, with a show like The Following, it is surprising that Mike has survived this long.

What will I talk about next Shipping Confessions? We go back to the Animorphs series to look at a pretty girl that is really a deadly warrior and a peaceful person that can still do questionable things.

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