The jealous bitch and other things.
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Monday, July 23, 2012
jTRC (Church and Politics)
In this episode of my ranting series I talk about the topic of politics in church.
Sunday, July 22, 2012
S&N: Forever Vigilant 1
"I said no, Samara." I yelled, not caring who else in the house heard me. "I'm not a human. I'm an M-4. Spas don't interest me anymore."
"What about me?" She replied. Her tone angry with a sense of longing. "I'm here too. For one day I want to forget-"
"That I'm me?" I asked. "Listen, I'm trying just as hard as you are. My whole world is changing just as much as yours.
Samara sighed and looked away. Then the next second she looked back at me. "Then why don't you try and show it. You know you're not the only one."
I stepped right up to her face and said, "If I'm not the only one why haven't you found someone else in the three years that I was gone?"
As soon as the words were out of my mouth I felt what was very similar to shame. I knew the reason why. It was the same reason I had been able to escape my programming. The hope that someone I loved was still out there and waiting for me.
"I'm sorry." I said with the usual Machine toneless voice. I cared so much that I had lost control of my voice. Unlike a human's, it just went toneless.
Samara nodded and wiped away a tear. She knew I cared, or at least she hoped. And hope can be more powerful than knowing.
"Nazilla is right, Samara, those things don't go to Spas." Mark said and stepped into the living room. The other members had been quiet. They were pretending not to be here. "Hell, Nazilla shouldn't be here."
"It is my choice, Marky," I said. Mark tried to hide his anger as I used one of his most hated nicknames to date.
"Naz and Mark, please." Samara said and both of us. Mark and I just looked at each other. One day we might have our final battle over Samara. But right in front of her, especially right now, wouldn't be the time or day.
"If you even think of harming her-" Mark told me.
"I will self-destruct." I said and he walked away angrily. "Now about the Spa."
With that Samara and I got into the car and I drove her. In the car we turned up the radio and she found a station she liked. I only did the motions of dancing because she was doing that too. My Machine self found nothing pleasing about the sounds coming out of the radio.
Samara stopped her dancing and turned to me. "You used to like this song."
I looked at her and said, "I just hear the sounds and nothing else."
"Can't you remember, though?"
"Yes, I can, but I don't get any feelings from it." With that the only sound was from the radio and the only motion was from the car.
However, once we arrived and entered the Spa, we were talking like old friends again. I examined the entrance and I saw beauty in the work. To a human it was calming, for me it was a study of what I had once been. Which, I guess, was calming in a sense.
As I was examining the Spa I saw someone. That someone was either an enemy, friend, or someone caught in the middle. For now I didn't know which one she was. But, whichever one she was, I was interested in seeing her again. To destroy the mystery surrounding her. My sensors easily identified her as Glau.
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"What about me?" She replied. Her tone angry with a sense of longing. "I'm here too. For one day I want to forget-"
"That I'm me?" I asked. "Listen, I'm trying just as hard as you are. My whole world is changing just as much as yours.
Samara sighed and looked away. Then the next second she looked back at me. "Then why don't you try and show it. You know you're not the only one."
I stepped right up to her face and said, "If I'm not the only one why haven't you found someone else in the three years that I was gone?"
As soon as the words were out of my mouth I felt what was very similar to shame. I knew the reason why. It was the same reason I had been able to escape my programming. The hope that someone I loved was still out there and waiting for me.
"I'm sorry." I said with the usual Machine toneless voice. I cared so much that I had lost control of my voice. Unlike a human's, it just went toneless.
Samara nodded and wiped away a tear. She knew I cared, or at least she hoped. And hope can be more powerful than knowing.
"Nazilla is right, Samara, those things don't go to Spas." Mark said and stepped into the living room. The other members had been quiet. They were pretending not to be here. "Hell, Nazilla shouldn't be here."
"It is my choice, Marky," I said. Mark tried to hide his anger as I used one of his most hated nicknames to date.
"Naz and Mark, please." Samara said and both of us. Mark and I just looked at each other. One day we might have our final battle over Samara. But right in front of her, especially right now, wouldn't be the time or day.
"If you even think of harming her-" Mark told me.
"I will self-destruct." I said and he walked away angrily. "Now about the Spa."
With that Samara and I got into the car and I drove her. In the car we turned up the radio and she found a station she liked. I only did the motions of dancing because she was doing that too. My Machine self found nothing pleasing about the sounds coming out of the radio.
Samara stopped her dancing and turned to me. "You used to like this song."
I looked at her and said, "I just hear the sounds and nothing else."
"Can't you remember, though?"
"Yes, I can, but I don't get any feelings from it." With that the only sound was from the radio and the only motion was from the car.
However, once we arrived and entered the Spa, we were talking like old friends again. I examined the entrance and I saw beauty in the work. To a human it was calming, for me it was a study of what I had once been. Which, I guess, was calming in a sense.
As I was examining the Spa I saw someone. That someone was either an enemy, friend, or someone caught in the middle. For now I didn't know which one she was. But, whichever one she was, I was interested in seeing her again. To destroy the mystery surrounding her. My sensors easily identified her as Glau.
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Thursday, July 19, 2012
Man on a Ledge (2012)
Title: Man on a Ledge
Director: Asger Leth
Starring: Sam Worthington, Elizabeth Banks, and Jamie Bell
Rated: PG-13
Released: 2012
Personal Rating: 3/5
Oscars: N/A
Basic Plot: As a police psychologist works to talk down an ex-con who is threatening to jump from a Manhattan hotel rooftop, the biggest diamond heist ever committed is in motion...
Trailer
Eye Candy
There is a good amount of eye candy to be found here. Sam Worthington, as always, looks delicious. For those interested in women there is one woman whose purpose is to be eye candy. At one point she appears in bright pink bra and panties. Nothing as sexy for Worthington, though.
Stealing to Prove Innocence
This does make sense in context of the movie. Worthington's character is blamed for stealing a diamond that, I assume, the bad guy has hidden since the day of Worthington being blamed. If that's not the case then I would agree the plot wouldn't make sense.
On a Ledge
I have a fear or heights so I was a little creeped out. Of course this wasn't a horror movie but it's still an element that was used to good effect. I was worried about how much would take place on the ledge, but not all of it did. The climax does involve the ledge. The movie isn't as boring as the title would make it out to be.
Final Thoughts
I admit I saw this movie for Sam Worthington and I don't regret seeing it. Should you see it? If you're looking for a movie to relax to this is a good bet. I wasn't drunk while watching this movie and I enjoyed it.
Director: Asger Leth
Starring: Sam Worthington, Elizabeth Banks, and Jamie Bell
Rated: PG-13
Released: 2012
Personal Rating: 3/5
Oscars: N/A
Basic Plot: As a police psychologist works to talk down an ex-con who is threatening to jump from a Manhattan hotel rooftop, the biggest diamond heist ever committed is in motion...
Trailer
Eye Candy
There is a good amount of eye candy to be found here. Sam Worthington, as always, looks delicious. For those interested in women there is one woman whose purpose is to be eye candy. At one point she appears in bright pink bra and panties. Nothing as sexy for Worthington, though.
Stealing to Prove Innocence
This does make sense in context of the movie. Worthington's character is blamed for stealing a diamond that, I assume, the bad guy has hidden since the day of Worthington being blamed. If that's not the case then I would agree the plot wouldn't make sense.
On a Ledge
I have a fear or heights so I was a little creeped out. Of course this wasn't a horror movie but it's still an element that was used to good effect. I was worried about how much would take place on the ledge, but not all of it did. The climax does involve the ledge. The movie isn't as boring as the title would make it out to be.
Final Thoughts
I admit I saw this movie for Sam Worthington and I don't regret seeing it. Should you see it? If you're looking for a movie to relax to this is a good bet. I wasn't drunk while watching this movie and I enjoyed it.
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Courting of Lillith
Authors Note: This is for an rp I'm in. So there is a lot of back story there isn't room to mention here. As well as the rp there is my fanfic series (The Eternal Heart) that this mini-series relates to. So if you're lost just ask me and I can tell you what wouldn't be considered spoilers in those two mediums.
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The air in the room was thick with hours of boredom. Torturing a Terminator wasn't fun at all, it was just tedious. For me, it was like torturing a family member. I was a Xeno named Jash Connor. I was a pure biological Terminator unlike the one I was torturing for information. I could see all its wires and parts over the room.
Metal felt pain. Maybe not like a human, but it did. No one else in the Resistance understood that and I wasn't about to teach them. They wouldn't understand. Luckily I had been torturing the Terminator alone. It was lucky since only I heard the name Lillith.
I stepped out of the room and thought about her. The last time I had seen her had been at the massacre, pre-Judgment Day, at the hospital. The last time I had kissed her had been...before I had met the Lillith that currently existed.
According to the Terminator I had tortured, Lillith was alive and in the custody of Skynet. As I leaned against the wall, my comrades walked past me without saying a word. I was glad of that. My appearance of Terminator blood was probably what made them steer clear of me.
As I walked away from the room I debated about telling Marty, the man in charge now. The man who had killed John Connor. True, my love had turned to the crazy side but Marty had still killed him. Martin Bedell killed John Connor.
So should I tell him? We had shared a simple kiss, an unneeded addition to my long memory, but that had been it. We had both been happy but now Lillith could return to me. So should I tell Marty?
No, I shouldn't. If he questioned about why Lillith left me there were things I couldn't tell him. Things that would change his entire outlook about me. If he knew the depths I could go to and what sins I could commit, I'd lose his trust. And his comradeship was one of the only things helping me to move on.
I wouldn't tell Marty. So now I was on my own to rescue Lillith who I was afraid to meet. Who knows how she would be now. I went to the hanger and looked at the choppers. I heard a sound and then a voice.
It said, "What you doing?"
"Just going to do a scouting mission."
"Should you? I mean, Martin's kid and all?" Marcus asked.
"That won't be a problem." I replied. "I'll be back in a few hours."
Marcus looked at me, ready to argue, but he backed away. It took a few minutes, but I took off after the location said by the Terminator.
* * *
The sun was setting and I was getting close to the Skynet base. Close to the base and close to Lillith. Deciding to not be too suicidal I landed a mile away from the base. True, I wanted to attract attention while my logical mind said that wasn't a good idea. But, hell, I hadn't been logical for a long time now.
When I exited the helicopter, I made sure that my katanas were secure on my back. Didn't want the special Coltan cutting blades getting lost. It took a short time to get to the entrance, at least the entrance I was going to use. But even though it took a short time to get to my entrance, it seemed a lot longer. I was afraid of finding Lillith and only to lose her.
The entrance I was using was the back of a small Terminator factory. I only say small because I had seen much bigger ones. And the fact that the majority of the base was a prison camp. As I went through the entrance I heard a sound and dodged.
A Terminator had followed me and I would have blood to show my love! I sliced off one of its arm as it shot part of my face off. Blood splattered onto my clothing as I healed. The next moment saw me slicing its head off.
But that wasn't the only one for the alarm had been sounded. Skynet knew Jash Connor was in the base, but didn't know why. It had created me and I had defeated it once in a different timeline.
More Terminators came at me and I sliced the metal down as it kept on trying to slice me. As they were my brothers, so to speak, they knew my weakness. This meant a lot of fancy dancing to protect my heart. Bullets came dangerously close to destroying my heart and I blacked out for a few seconds as one came too close.
I woke up while being slammed against the wall and my spine breaking. I yelled out as I took one katana to cut its gun in half and the other to slice its head off. More blood was taken from me and I ran looking for Lillith's room.
I managed to hide and lose the metal chasing me. I didn't know for how long so I hurried up searching. After what felt like hours I found her. Maybe by chance or maybe because life was giving me a break.
I cut open the door and Lillith stood up. She was ready to take death and all of its tricks. At least I assumed she was Lillith until I got a better view. Her breasts had become fuller and she looked more aged. More crazed was a better description, though. Was that my fault?
After a few nanoseconds she grinned at me. If she were more like me, she would've hugged me. But, really, we hadn't left on the best of terms. Plus, there were Terminators after us.
I signaled to her and she followed me.
"Duck!" I yelled as a Terminator shot at her and, since she had gotten down in time, hit me in the stomach.
"Jash!" She exclaimed as I cut off its arm. She had never seen me heal before. Not this version of her, at least. When Lillith recovered, which was very quickly, she took its gun.
"Swords." She said and shook her head.
"Katanas." I grumbled and the battle for our freedom continued.
Now that I had someone to protect, I became more cautious. I made sure shots missed me and, if they were to hit Lillith, I blocked them as best I could. Once we reached my exit, the actual base's entrance, we were both bloodied.
We couldn't outrun machines, but there could be a distraction. I ran to the nearest Terminator and cut its chest open and jumped back. Lillith took the hint and shot at the nuclear batteries. Then there was a giant explosion that blew us away. Very literally in fact.
Luckily we both recovered and were able to run away quickly. Well, Lillith was able to limp away at a good pace. Point was, we were both safe.
After hours of running we found a cave. I helped Lillith lie down and work on her leg. My ears, a little more sensitive than a human's, were at work to pick out any Terminator that might have managed to follow us. As I finished patching up Lillith, they hadn't heard anything.
And Lillith's leg? Almost as lovely as I remembered it. Though it looked like it had taken more of a beating than when I had last seen it.
"It'll be a few days until we can be back to the base in Los Angeles." I told her and leaned against one of the cave walls. I expected an agreement as, when I had left her, she had been very compliant. Oh, so very compliant.
Instead, the silence was uncomfortable and I realized something was wrong. I looked into Lillith's eyes and saw a pain, hate, and loss that hadn't been there before. It was as if I was seeing myself more twisted than I already was.
"I'm not joining the Resistance, Jash." Lillith replied. "I don't care if the world burns and all that's left is metal and ashes. I just don't give a fuck."
"But isn't there a human you care about?" I asked.
Lillith leaned forward and looked up at me. I realized that she had grown but in all the wrong ways. The majority of scars were self inflicted. In her eyes was a fire that was burning dark. All this I noticed as she said, "Not you."
Then she leaned back but still held my gaze.
"Why?" I asked before realizing it was a stupid question with a damning answer.
"The hospital." Lillith replied. "You know how damning that was to me? You wanted me to kill a woman and her family. How could you?"
The memories flooded my mind and I couldn't wash them away. I wanted to answer her with something funny to relieve the tension. But, for once, I had nothing I could tell her. Nothing that I could believe without denying the truth.
* * *
Days passed and we stayed in the cave. I know that Lillith was staying so her leg could heal. Why was I staying? I looked to the sleeping form of Lillith. She was the reason to stay here. She was the reason to stay here in the cave trying to get her to join the Resistance.
Why was I in the Resistance? John Connor was the reason. But now he was gone, for the second time, and I couldn't impart those emotions on Lillith. No matter how hard I tried. And I had tried for a few days.
Once we were eating breakfast I decided to try a different tactic. Something I hadn't said in a long time. Something that should've been said to Lillith long ago.
"I'm sorry." I said and Lillith just looked at me. For the moment, the crazed look in her eyes was gone. "I'm so sorry for what I did. I betrayed myself, I betrayed John, and I betrayed you."
"You said we were going to be together forever." Lillith said, as if in a daze. Well, we had been. Lillith and I had been married at the end of the first war. But we weren't a couple now. Maybe we would never be.
"Yeah, that's how it was supposed to turn out." I replied. "The thing I am most ashamed of is how my actions twisted and turned you."
I thought I had said something bad when Lillith remained silent. But, when I thought all was lost, she nodded. Though I admit there was a bit of surprise in her nod.
"You know it wasn't entirely your fault." Lillith said and I just looked at her. "The hospital was, but what happened to me wasn't. I could've made different choices but I didn't. And now I can't change back."
"Once you choose one way of life you can't ever go back." I replied.
"And did you ever go back?"
"I've made myself look stable but I'm not. I can't go back from that night."
We continued to talk until that night when we built a fire and just sat near each other. I felt so connected to her and my eyes drifted over and through her. On the outside I saw her damaged body radiating a different type of beauty. It wasn't pure or clean but one of strength.
Inside I imagined myself. Well the reverse of myself. I was a damaged soul in a perfect body while Lillith was a damaged soul in a damaged body. So not quite the reverse of myself.
I realized something then: I loved her still. Truly loved her.
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I was dreaming of something pleasant. John Connor was there and we were making love. We had won the war against Skynet and nothing was wrong now. Marty was still human, I had never killed Jesse Flores, and Sarah Connor was still alive.
Cameron and Sarah Connor were together with none of the complications. None of Sarah hating Terminators.
But the only thing that mattered now was John's lips on mine. I closed my eyes and opened to see that Lillith was kissing me. What the fuck? I pushed her off quickly and tried to remember where I was.
"Sorry." Lillith said.
"It's okay." I replied as I started to recall where and who I was. "It's not that I don't like you, it's just that there's a lot of things coming up now."
"Like what?" She asked and a tear went down her cheek.
"There's a guy. Marty. Well, his real name is Martin Bedell. He killed John Connor but I...have feelings for him."
"What type of feelings?"
"I'd use love but there shouldn't be anything there. He killed a crazed John."
"But John Connor nonetheless."
"Yeah," I replied. "That."
"But that isn't all, is it?" Lillith asked.
I shook my head. "I'm having his twins. Well, making twins with some of his DNA. It's complicated."
"It always is with you." Lillith said and held my hands. "But the question now is: would you be cheating on him if I had sex with you now?"
I thought for a second. But it was hard to think with Lillith by me. Did Marty matter now? No, I wasn't his woman and he wasn't my man. I was with no one. I was alone and could go into any port I wished.
But with Lillith?
As I started with a kiss I had it confirmed that I loved her. As I took off her clothes I realized that some loves could span timelines. And as I made love with her, I knew I couldn't erase her with any amount of lovers.
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I felt a light kiss on my forehead and I woke up to Lillith's gaze. I smiled at her and she smiled back. Last night had been an adventure in more ways than one.
"You sore?" She asked.
"I heal myself too quickly." I replied. "And you're a little out of shape yourself."
"Oh, you have no idea." With that she got dressed and I followed suit. "Maybe next time I'll be a little rougher. I'll make you bleed."
"Yeah," I replied as I realized her blood lust might need to be controlled. "I believe I could take that."
"The hero of the Resistance can take anything, can she?"
As I finished dressing I replied, "A hero of the Resistance can take anything."
"Yeah, I forgot." Lillith replied and I nodded.
"John." We both said at the same time.
I kissed Lillith gently on the lips and asked, "To the Resistance?"
"Why not?" She asked when I finally let her go.
It took a few hours and we connected more. Sex can only connect people so far, but conversations can break even more ground. We laughed and joked around. For those precious few hours I imagined that things were like before. But that I had never gone down a dark road as I had in reality.
As we neared the entrance to the Resistance Camp I saw Tyler. The Tyler who had a thing of looking and not looking at me. Luckily he hadn't tried to do anything and I wasn't that interested. Turning to Lillith I smiled. I didn't have to worry about looking anymore.
What about Marty? What about John? One I shouldn't love and the other was dead.
"Jash Connor?" Tyler asked with a straight face and looked at Lillith. "Who is that with you?"
"Her name?" I asked and smirked. He nodded. "Her name is Lillith."
"Are you sure she's not with Skynet?" He asked.
I took one of Lillith's hands in mine and replied. "I've known her before this war and she's agreed to join the Resistance."
"Who is she to you?"
"Her lover." Lillith replied and he let us go by.
"Marty. We have to see him first." I said.
"Why?" Lillith asked with a smile.
"We need to alert him about you. And then, the ceiling is the limit." I said and we walked towards Marty.
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Author's Note: I hope you enjoyed this little mini-series. If you're wondering where this falls in with The Eternal Heart timeline: it doesn't. This is based more off the roleplay and the timelines don't meet.
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The air in the room was thick with hours of boredom. Torturing a Terminator wasn't fun at all, it was just tedious. For me, it was like torturing a family member. I was a Xeno named Jash Connor. I was a pure biological Terminator unlike the one I was torturing for information. I could see all its wires and parts over the room.
Metal felt pain. Maybe not like a human, but it did. No one else in the Resistance understood that and I wasn't about to teach them. They wouldn't understand. Luckily I had been torturing the Terminator alone. It was lucky since only I heard the name Lillith.
I stepped out of the room and thought about her. The last time I had seen her had been at the massacre, pre-Judgment Day, at the hospital. The last time I had kissed her had been...before I had met the Lillith that currently existed.
According to the Terminator I had tortured, Lillith was alive and in the custody of Skynet. As I leaned against the wall, my comrades walked past me without saying a word. I was glad of that. My appearance of Terminator blood was probably what made them steer clear of me.
As I walked away from the room I debated about telling Marty, the man in charge now. The man who had killed John Connor. True, my love had turned to the crazy side but Marty had still killed him. Martin Bedell killed John Connor.
So should I tell him? We had shared a simple kiss, an unneeded addition to my long memory, but that had been it. We had both been happy but now Lillith could return to me. So should I tell Marty?
No, I shouldn't. If he questioned about why Lillith left me there were things I couldn't tell him. Things that would change his entire outlook about me. If he knew the depths I could go to and what sins I could commit, I'd lose his trust. And his comradeship was one of the only things helping me to move on.
I wouldn't tell Marty. So now I was on my own to rescue Lillith who I was afraid to meet. Who knows how she would be now. I went to the hanger and looked at the choppers. I heard a sound and then a voice.
It said, "What you doing?"
"Just going to do a scouting mission."
"Should you? I mean, Martin's kid and all?" Marcus asked.
"That won't be a problem." I replied. "I'll be back in a few hours."
Marcus looked at me, ready to argue, but he backed away. It took a few minutes, but I took off after the location said by the Terminator.
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The sun was setting and I was getting close to the Skynet base. Close to the base and close to Lillith. Deciding to not be too suicidal I landed a mile away from the base. True, I wanted to attract attention while my logical mind said that wasn't a good idea. But, hell, I hadn't been logical for a long time now.
When I exited the helicopter, I made sure that my katanas were secure on my back. Didn't want the special Coltan cutting blades getting lost. It took a short time to get to the entrance, at least the entrance I was going to use. But even though it took a short time to get to my entrance, it seemed a lot longer. I was afraid of finding Lillith and only to lose her.
The entrance I was using was the back of a small Terminator factory. I only say small because I had seen much bigger ones. And the fact that the majority of the base was a prison camp. As I went through the entrance I heard a sound and dodged.
A Terminator had followed me and I would have blood to show my love! I sliced off one of its arm as it shot part of my face off. Blood splattered onto my clothing as I healed. The next moment saw me slicing its head off.
But that wasn't the only one for the alarm had been sounded. Skynet knew Jash Connor was in the base, but didn't know why. It had created me and I had defeated it once in a different timeline.
More Terminators came at me and I sliced the metal down as it kept on trying to slice me. As they were my brothers, so to speak, they knew my weakness. This meant a lot of fancy dancing to protect my heart. Bullets came dangerously close to destroying my heart and I blacked out for a few seconds as one came too close.
I woke up while being slammed against the wall and my spine breaking. I yelled out as I took one katana to cut its gun in half and the other to slice its head off. More blood was taken from me and I ran looking for Lillith's room.
I managed to hide and lose the metal chasing me. I didn't know for how long so I hurried up searching. After what felt like hours I found her. Maybe by chance or maybe because life was giving me a break.
I cut open the door and Lillith stood up. She was ready to take death and all of its tricks. At least I assumed she was Lillith until I got a better view. Her breasts had become fuller and she looked more aged. More crazed was a better description, though. Was that my fault?
After a few nanoseconds she grinned at me. If she were more like me, she would've hugged me. But, really, we hadn't left on the best of terms. Plus, there were Terminators after us.
I signaled to her and she followed me.
"Duck!" I yelled as a Terminator shot at her and, since she had gotten down in time, hit me in the stomach.
"Jash!" She exclaimed as I cut off its arm. She had never seen me heal before. Not this version of her, at least. When Lillith recovered, which was very quickly, she took its gun.
"Swords." She said and shook her head.
"Katanas." I grumbled and the battle for our freedom continued.
Now that I had someone to protect, I became more cautious. I made sure shots missed me and, if they were to hit Lillith, I blocked them as best I could. Once we reached my exit, the actual base's entrance, we were both bloodied.
We couldn't outrun machines, but there could be a distraction. I ran to the nearest Terminator and cut its chest open and jumped back. Lillith took the hint and shot at the nuclear batteries. Then there was a giant explosion that blew us away. Very literally in fact.
Luckily we both recovered and were able to run away quickly. Well, Lillith was able to limp away at a good pace. Point was, we were both safe.
After hours of running we found a cave. I helped Lillith lie down and work on her leg. My ears, a little more sensitive than a human's, were at work to pick out any Terminator that might have managed to follow us. As I finished patching up Lillith, they hadn't heard anything.
And Lillith's leg? Almost as lovely as I remembered it. Though it looked like it had taken more of a beating than when I had last seen it.
"It'll be a few days until we can be back to the base in Los Angeles." I told her and leaned against one of the cave walls. I expected an agreement as, when I had left her, she had been very compliant. Oh, so very compliant.
Instead, the silence was uncomfortable and I realized something was wrong. I looked into Lillith's eyes and saw a pain, hate, and loss that hadn't been there before. It was as if I was seeing myself more twisted than I already was.
"I'm not joining the Resistance, Jash." Lillith replied. "I don't care if the world burns and all that's left is metal and ashes. I just don't give a fuck."
"But isn't there a human you care about?" I asked.
Lillith leaned forward and looked up at me. I realized that she had grown but in all the wrong ways. The majority of scars were self inflicted. In her eyes was a fire that was burning dark. All this I noticed as she said, "Not you."
Then she leaned back but still held my gaze.
"Why?" I asked before realizing it was a stupid question with a damning answer.
"The hospital." Lillith replied. "You know how damning that was to me? You wanted me to kill a woman and her family. How could you?"
The memories flooded my mind and I couldn't wash them away. I wanted to answer her with something funny to relieve the tension. But, for once, I had nothing I could tell her. Nothing that I could believe without denying the truth.
* * *
Days passed and we stayed in the cave. I know that Lillith was staying so her leg could heal. Why was I staying? I looked to the sleeping form of Lillith. She was the reason to stay here. She was the reason to stay here in the cave trying to get her to join the Resistance.
Why was I in the Resistance? John Connor was the reason. But now he was gone, for the second time, and I couldn't impart those emotions on Lillith. No matter how hard I tried. And I had tried for a few days.
Once we were eating breakfast I decided to try a different tactic. Something I hadn't said in a long time. Something that should've been said to Lillith long ago.
"I'm sorry." I said and Lillith just looked at me. For the moment, the crazed look in her eyes was gone. "I'm so sorry for what I did. I betrayed myself, I betrayed John, and I betrayed you."
"You said we were going to be together forever." Lillith said, as if in a daze. Well, we had been. Lillith and I had been married at the end of the first war. But we weren't a couple now. Maybe we would never be.
"Yeah, that's how it was supposed to turn out." I replied. "The thing I am most ashamed of is how my actions twisted and turned you."
I thought I had said something bad when Lillith remained silent. But, when I thought all was lost, she nodded. Though I admit there was a bit of surprise in her nod.
"You know it wasn't entirely your fault." Lillith said and I just looked at her. "The hospital was, but what happened to me wasn't. I could've made different choices but I didn't. And now I can't change back."
"Once you choose one way of life you can't ever go back." I replied.
"And did you ever go back?"
"I've made myself look stable but I'm not. I can't go back from that night."
We continued to talk until that night when we built a fire and just sat near each other. I felt so connected to her and my eyes drifted over and through her. On the outside I saw her damaged body radiating a different type of beauty. It wasn't pure or clean but one of strength.
Inside I imagined myself. Well the reverse of myself. I was a damaged soul in a perfect body while Lillith was a damaged soul in a damaged body. So not quite the reverse of myself.
I realized something then: I loved her still. Truly loved her.
* * *
I was dreaming of something pleasant. John Connor was there and we were making love. We had won the war against Skynet and nothing was wrong now. Marty was still human, I had never killed Jesse Flores, and Sarah Connor was still alive.
Cameron and Sarah Connor were together with none of the complications. None of Sarah hating Terminators.
But the only thing that mattered now was John's lips on mine. I closed my eyes and opened to see that Lillith was kissing me. What the fuck? I pushed her off quickly and tried to remember where I was.
"Sorry." Lillith said.
"It's okay." I replied as I started to recall where and who I was. "It's not that I don't like you, it's just that there's a lot of things coming up now."
"Like what?" She asked and a tear went down her cheek.
"There's a guy. Marty. Well, his real name is Martin Bedell. He killed John Connor but I...have feelings for him."
"What type of feelings?"
"I'd use love but there shouldn't be anything there. He killed a crazed John."
"But John Connor nonetheless."
"Yeah," I replied. "That."
"But that isn't all, is it?" Lillith asked.
I shook my head. "I'm having his twins. Well, making twins with some of his DNA. It's complicated."
"It always is with you." Lillith said and held my hands. "But the question now is: would you be cheating on him if I had sex with you now?"
I thought for a second. But it was hard to think with Lillith by me. Did Marty matter now? No, I wasn't his woman and he wasn't my man. I was with no one. I was alone and could go into any port I wished.
But with Lillith?
As I started with a kiss I had it confirmed that I loved her. As I took off her clothes I realized that some loves could span timelines. And as I made love with her, I knew I couldn't erase her with any amount of lovers.
* * *
I felt a light kiss on my forehead and I woke up to Lillith's gaze. I smiled at her and she smiled back. Last night had been an adventure in more ways than one.
"You sore?" She asked.
"I heal myself too quickly." I replied. "And you're a little out of shape yourself."
"Oh, you have no idea." With that she got dressed and I followed suit. "Maybe next time I'll be a little rougher. I'll make you bleed."
"Yeah," I replied as I realized her blood lust might need to be controlled. "I believe I could take that."
"The hero of the Resistance can take anything, can she?"
As I finished dressing I replied, "A hero of the Resistance can take anything."
"Yeah, I forgot." Lillith replied and I nodded.
"John." We both said at the same time.
I kissed Lillith gently on the lips and asked, "To the Resistance?"
"Why not?" She asked when I finally let her go.
It took a few hours and we connected more. Sex can only connect people so far, but conversations can break even more ground. We laughed and joked around. For those precious few hours I imagined that things were like before. But that I had never gone down a dark road as I had in reality.
As we neared the entrance to the Resistance Camp I saw Tyler. The Tyler who had a thing of looking and not looking at me. Luckily he hadn't tried to do anything and I wasn't that interested. Turning to Lillith I smiled. I didn't have to worry about looking anymore.
What about Marty? What about John? One I shouldn't love and the other was dead.
"Jash Connor?" Tyler asked with a straight face and looked at Lillith. "Who is that with you?"
"Her name?" I asked and smirked. He nodded. "Her name is Lillith."
"Are you sure she's not with Skynet?" He asked.
I took one of Lillith's hands in mine and replied. "I've known her before this war and she's agreed to join the Resistance."
"Who is she to you?"
"Her lover." Lillith replied and he let us go by.
"Marty. We have to see him first." I said.
"Why?" Lillith asked with a smile.
"We need to alert him about you. And then, the ceiling is the limit." I said and we walked towards Marty.
X
Author's Note: I hope you enjoyed this little mini-series. If you're wondering where this falls in with The Eternal Heart timeline: it doesn't. This is based more off the roleplay and the timelines don't meet.
Courting of Lillith 6
I felt a light kiss on my forehead and I woke up to Lillith's gaze. I smiled at her and she smiled back. Last night had been an adventure in more ways than one.
"You sore?" She asked.
"I heal myself too quickly." I replied. "And you're a little out of shape yourself."
"Oh, you have no idea." With that she got dressed and I followed suit. "Maybe next time I'll be a little rougher. I'll make you bleed."
"Yeah," I replied as I realized her blood lust might need to be controlled. "I believe I could take that."
"The hero of the Resistance can take anything, can she?"
As I finished dressing I replied, "A hero of the Resistance can take anything."
"Yeah, I forgot." Lillith replied and I nodded.
"John." We both said at the same time.
I kissed Lillith gently on the lips and asked, "To the Resistance?"
"Why not?" She asked when I finally let her go.
It took a few hours and we connected more. Sex can only connect people so far, but conversations can break even more ground. We laughed and joked around. For those precious few hours I imagined that things were like before. But that I had never gone down a dark road as I had in reality.
As we neared the entrance to the Resistance Camp I saw Tyler. The Tyler who had a thing of looking and not looking at me. Luckily he hadn't tried to do anything and I wasn't that interested. Turning to Lillith I smiled. I didn't have to worry about looking anymore.
What about Marty? What about John? One I shouldn't love and the other was dead.
"Jash Connor?" Tyler asked with a straight face and looked at Lillith. "Who is that with you?"
"Her name?" I asked and smirked. He nodded. "Her name is Lillith."
"Are you sure she's not with Skynet?" He asked.
I took one of Lillith's hands in mine and replied. "I've known her before this war and she's agreed to join the Resistance."
"Who is she to you?"
"Her lover." Lillith replied and he let us go by.
"Marty. We have to see him first." I said.
"Why?" Lillith asked with a smile.
"We need to alert him about you. And then, the ceiling is the limit." I said and we walked towards Marty.
X X X X X X X
Author's Note: I hope you enjoyed this little mini-series. If you're wondering where this falls in with The Eternal Heart timeline: it doesn't. This is based more off the roleplay and the timelines don't meet.
"You sore?" She asked.
"I heal myself too quickly." I replied. "And you're a little out of shape yourself."
"Oh, you have no idea." With that she got dressed and I followed suit. "Maybe next time I'll be a little rougher. I'll make you bleed."
"Yeah," I replied as I realized her blood lust might need to be controlled. "I believe I could take that."
"The hero of the Resistance can take anything, can she?"
As I finished dressing I replied, "A hero of the Resistance can take anything."
"Yeah, I forgot." Lillith replied and I nodded.
"John." We both said at the same time.
I kissed Lillith gently on the lips and asked, "To the Resistance?"
"Why not?" She asked when I finally let her go.
It took a few hours and we connected more. Sex can only connect people so far, but conversations can break even more ground. We laughed and joked around. For those precious few hours I imagined that things were like before. But that I had never gone down a dark road as I had in reality.
As we neared the entrance to the Resistance Camp I saw Tyler. The Tyler who had a thing of looking and not looking at me. Luckily he hadn't tried to do anything and I wasn't that interested. Turning to Lillith I smiled. I didn't have to worry about looking anymore.
What about Marty? What about John? One I shouldn't love and the other was dead.
"Jash Connor?" Tyler asked with a straight face and looked at Lillith. "Who is that with you?"
"Her name?" I asked and smirked. He nodded. "Her name is Lillith."
"Are you sure she's not with Skynet?" He asked.
I took one of Lillith's hands in mine and replied. "I've known her before this war and she's agreed to join the Resistance."
"Who is she to you?"
"Her lover." Lillith replied and he let us go by.
"Marty. We have to see him first." I said.
"Why?" Lillith asked with a smile.
"We need to alert him about you. And then, the ceiling is the limit." I said and we walked towards Marty.
X X X X X X X
Author's Note: I hope you enjoyed this little mini-series. If you're wondering where this falls in with The Eternal Heart timeline: it doesn't. This is based more off the roleplay and the timelines don't meet.
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Monday, July 16, 2012
Courting of Lillith 5
I was dreaming of something pleasant. John Connor was there and we were making love. We had won the war against Skynet and nothing was wrong now. Marty was still human, I had never killed Jesse Flores, and Sarah Connor was still alive.
Cameron and Sarah Connor were together with none of the complications. None of Sarah hating Terminators.
But the only thing that mattered now was John's lips on mine. I closed my eyes and opened to see that Lillith was kissing me. What the fuck? I pushed her off quickly and tried to remember where I was.
"Sorry." Lillith said.
"It's okay." I replied as I started to recall where and who I was. "It's not that I don't like you, it's just that there's a lot of things coming up now."
"Like what?" She asked and a tear went down her cheek.
"There's a guy. Marty. Well, his real name is Martin Bedell. He killed John Connor but I...have feelings for him."
"What type of feelings?"
"I'd use love but there shouldn't be anything there. He killed a crazed John."
"But John Connor nonetheless."
"Yeah," I replied. "That."
"But that isn't all, is it?" Lillith asked.
I shook my head. "I'm having his twins. Well, making twins with some of his DNA. It's complicated."
"It always is with you." Lillith said and held my hands. "But the question now is: would you be cheating on him if I had sex with you now?"
I thought for a second. But it was hard to think with Lillith by me. Did Marty matter now? No, I wasn't his woman and he wasn't my man. I was with no one. I was alone and could go into any port I wished.
But with Lillith?
As I started with a kiss I had it confirmed that I loved her. As I took off her clothes I realized that some loves could span timelines. And as I made love with her, I knew I couldn't erase her with any amount of lovers.
Cameron and Sarah Connor were together with none of the complications. None of Sarah hating Terminators.
But the only thing that mattered now was John's lips on mine. I closed my eyes and opened to see that Lillith was kissing me. What the fuck? I pushed her off quickly and tried to remember where I was.
"Sorry." Lillith said.
"It's okay." I replied as I started to recall where and who I was. "It's not that I don't like you, it's just that there's a lot of things coming up now."
"Like what?" She asked and a tear went down her cheek.
"There's a guy. Marty. Well, his real name is Martin Bedell. He killed John Connor but I...have feelings for him."
"What type of feelings?"
"I'd use love but there shouldn't be anything there. He killed a crazed John."
"But John Connor nonetheless."
"Yeah," I replied. "That."
"But that isn't all, is it?" Lillith asked.
I shook my head. "I'm having his twins. Well, making twins with some of his DNA. It's complicated."
"It always is with you." Lillith said and held my hands. "But the question now is: would you be cheating on him if I had sex with you now?"
I thought for a second. But it was hard to think with Lillith by me. Did Marty matter now? No, I wasn't his woman and he wasn't my man. I was with no one. I was alone and could go into any port I wished.
But with Lillith?
As I started with a kiss I had it confirmed that I loved her. As I took off her clothes I realized that some loves could span timelines. And as I made love with her, I knew I couldn't erase her with any amount of lovers.
Courting of Lillith 4
Days passed and we stayed in the cave. I know that Lillith was staying so her leg could heal. Why was I staying? I looked to the sleeping form of Lillith. She was the reason to stay here. She was the reason to stay here in the cave trying to get her to join the Resistance.
Why was I in the Resistance? John Connor was the reason. But now he was gone, for the second time, and I couldn't impart those emotions on Lillith. No matter how hard I tried. And I had tried for a few days.
Once we were eating breakfast I decided to try a different tactic. Something I hadn't said in a long time. Something that should've been said to Lillith long ago.>
"I'm sorry." I said and Lillith just looked at me. For the moment, the crazed look in her eyes was gone. "I'm so sorry for what I did. I betrayed myself, I betrayed John, and I betrayed you."
"You said we were going to be together forever." Lillith said, as if in a daze. Well, we had been. Lillith and I had been married at the end of the first war. But we weren't a couple now. Maybe we would never be.
"Yeah, that's how it was supposed to turn out." I replied. "The thing I am most ashamed of is how my actions twisted and turned you."
I thought I had said something bad when Lillith remained silent. But, when I thought all was lost, she nodded. Though I admit there was a bit of surprise in her nod.
"You know it wasn't entirely your fault." Lillith said and I just looked at her. "The hospital was, but what happened to me wasn't. I could've made different choices but I didn't. And now I can't change back."
"Once you choose one way of life you can't ever go back." I replied.
"And did you ever go back?"
"I've made myself look stable but I'm not. I can't go back from that night.">
We continued to talk until that night when we built a fire and just sat near each other. I felt so connected to her and my eyes drifted over and through her. On the outside I saw her damaged body radiating a different type of beauty. It wasn't pure or clean but one of strength.
Inside I imagined myself. Well the reverse of myself. I was a damaged soul in a perfect body while Lillith was a damaged soul in a damaged body. So not quite the reverse of myself.
I realized something then: I loved her still. Truly loved her.
Why was I in the Resistance? John Connor was the reason. But now he was gone, for the second time, and I couldn't impart those emotions on Lillith. No matter how hard I tried. And I had tried for a few days.
Once we were eating breakfast I decided to try a different tactic. Something I hadn't said in a long time. Something that should've been said to Lillith long ago.>
"I'm sorry." I said and Lillith just looked at me. For the moment, the crazed look in her eyes was gone. "I'm so sorry for what I did. I betrayed myself, I betrayed John, and I betrayed you."
"You said we were going to be together forever." Lillith said, as if in a daze. Well, we had been. Lillith and I had been married at the end of the first war. But we weren't a couple now. Maybe we would never be.
"Yeah, that's how it was supposed to turn out." I replied. "The thing I am most ashamed of is how my actions twisted and turned you."
I thought I had said something bad when Lillith remained silent. But, when I thought all was lost, she nodded. Though I admit there was a bit of surprise in her nod.
"You know it wasn't entirely your fault." Lillith said and I just looked at her. "The hospital was, but what happened to me wasn't. I could've made different choices but I didn't. And now I can't change back."
"Once you choose one way of life you can't ever go back." I replied.
"And did you ever go back?"
"I've made myself look stable but I'm not. I can't go back from that night.">
We continued to talk until that night when we built a fire and just sat near each other. I felt so connected to her and my eyes drifted over and through her. On the outside I saw her damaged body radiating a different type of beauty. It wasn't pure or clean but one of strength.
Inside I imagined myself. Well the reverse of myself. I was a damaged soul in a perfect body while Lillith was a damaged soul in a damaged body. So not quite the reverse of myself.
I realized something then: I loved her still. Truly loved her.
Sunday, July 15, 2012
FRINGE - Season 5 Comic-Con Trailer
This makes me happy and sad.
Happy that it looks fucking badass and sad because Fringe is coming to a close.
Happy that it looks fucking badass and sad because Fringe is coming to a close.
Saturday, July 14, 2012
Curse of the Wolf (Part 4)
I finally finish my review series about the awesome b-movie Curse of the Wolf.
Friday, July 13, 2012
Three of a Kind (link)
-This is a Mature Story (if in content if not plot)
-It's a Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles and Alien Crossover
-It contains Cameron/Sarah Connor Pairing
If you still want to read it go HERE
Courting of Lillith 3
After hours of running we found a cave. I helped Lillith lie down and work on her leg. My ears, a little more sensitive than a human's, were at work to pick out any Terminator that might have managed to follow us. As I finished patching up Lillith, they hadn't heard anything.
And Lillith's leg? Almost as lovely as I remembered it. Though it looked like it had taken more of a beating than when I had last seen it.
"It'll be a few days until we can be back to the base in Los Angeles." I told her and leaned against one of the cave walls. I expected an agreement as, when I had left her, she had been very compliant. Oh, so very compliant.
Instead, the silence was uncomfortable and I realized something was wrong. I looked into Lillith's eyes and saw a pain, hate, and loss that hadn't been there before. It was as if I was seeing myself more twisted than I already was.
"I'm not joining the Resistance, Jash." Lillith replied. "I don't care if the world burns and all that's left is metal and ashes. I just don't give a fuck."
"But isn't there a human you care about?" I asked.
Lillith leaned forward and looked up at me. I realized that she had grown but in all the wrong ways. The majority of scars were self inflicted. In her eyes was a fire that was burning dark. All this I noticed as she said, "Not you."
Then she leaned back but still held my gaze.
"Why?" I asked before realizing it was a stupid question with a damning answer.<
"The hospital." Lillith replied. "You know how damning that was to me? You wanted me to kill a woman and her family. How could you?"
The memories flooded my mind and I couldn't wash them away. I wanted to answer her with something funny to relieve the tension. But, for once, I had nothing I could tell her. Nothing that I could believe without denying the truth.
And Lillith's leg? Almost as lovely as I remembered it. Though it looked like it had taken more of a beating than when I had last seen it.
"It'll be a few days until we can be back to the base in Los Angeles." I told her and leaned against one of the cave walls. I expected an agreement as, when I had left her, she had been very compliant. Oh, so very compliant.
Instead, the silence was uncomfortable and I realized something was wrong. I looked into Lillith's eyes and saw a pain, hate, and loss that hadn't been there before. It was as if I was seeing myself more twisted than I already was.
"I'm not joining the Resistance, Jash." Lillith replied. "I don't care if the world burns and all that's left is metal and ashes. I just don't give a fuck."
"But isn't there a human you care about?" I asked.
Lillith leaned forward and looked up at me. I realized that she had grown but in all the wrong ways. The majority of scars were self inflicted. In her eyes was a fire that was burning dark. All this I noticed as she said, "Not you."
Then she leaned back but still held my gaze.
"Why?" I asked before realizing it was a stupid question with a damning answer.<
"The hospital." Lillith replied. "You know how damning that was to me? You wanted me to kill a woman and her family. How could you?"
The memories flooded my mind and I couldn't wash them away. I wanted to answer her with something funny to relieve the tension. But, for once, I had nothing I could tell her. Nothing that I could believe without denying the truth.
Thursday, July 12, 2012
The Woman in Black (2012)
Title: The Woman in Black
Director: James Watkins
Starring: Daniel Radcliffe, Janet McTeer, and Ciarán Hinds
Rated: PG-13
Released: 2012
Personal Rating: 4.5/5
Oscars: N/A
Basic Plot: A young lawyer travels to a remote village where he discovers the vengeful ghost of a scorned woman is terrorizing the locals.
Truly Scary
This is a truly scary film. If you want gore in your film this isn't for you. If you want to go back into your seat in fear, you'll love this. It does have jump scares but you also care for the characters. What happens at the end heavily depends on you caring for the main character and his son.
Daniel Radcliffe
If you're wondering if you'll have a hard time not thinking of Radcliffe as Harry Potter, you will. Even though I could see him in his new role, I still saw Harry Potter. But it was shown that Radcliffe isn't bound by one role and can act in other roles.
The Scream
When I first saw The Grudge (and in lesser extents in other viewings) the boy screaming was one of the scariest sounds I had ever heard. The Woman in Black has a scream that you have to prepare weeks in advance to not piss your pants upon hearing. Maybe when I watch it again she'll be a little less scary sounding, but I doubt it.
Final Thoughts
This was an enjoyable movie. By the end of the movie I was nearly pissing my pants (excuse me, getting up to pee every five seconds). I didn't think it was going to be that scary. It starts off like nothing too scary would happen, but the end surprised me in a good way. Oh, this ain't Harry Potter folks.
Director: James Watkins
Starring: Daniel Radcliffe, Janet McTeer, and Ciarán Hinds
Rated: PG-13
Released: 2012
Personal Rating: 4.5/5
Oscars: N/A
Basic Plot: A young lawyer travels to a remote village where he discovers the vengeful ghost of a scorned woman is terrorizing the locals.
Truly Scary
This is a truly scary film. If you want gore in your film this isn't for you. If you want to go back into your seat in fear, you'll love this. It does have jump scares but you also care for the characters. What happens at the end heavily depends on you caring for the main character and his son.
Daniel Radcliffe
If you're wondering if you'll have a hard time not thinking of Radcliffe as Harry Potter, you will. Even though I could see him in his new role, I still saw Harry Potter. But it was shown that Radcliffe isn't bound by one role and can act in other roles.
The Scream
When I first saw The Grudge (and in lesser extents in other viewings) the boy screaming was one of the scariest sounds I had ever heard. The Woman in Black has a scream that you have to prepare weeks in advance to not piss your pants upon hearing. Maybe when I watch it again she'll be a little less scary sounding, but I doubt it.
Final Thoughts
This was an enjoyable movie. By the end of the movie I was nearly pissing my pants (excuse me, getting up to pee every five seconds). I didn't think it was going to be that scary. It starts off like nothing too scary would happen, but the end surprised me in a good way. Oh, this ain't Harry Potter folks.
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Twlight Fan's Death is Ironic
I'm not saying this is funny, just ironic. There is a difference, interwebs!
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Courting of Lillith 2
The sun was setting and I was getting close to the Skynet base. Close to the base and close to Lillith. Deciding to not be too suicidal I landed a mile away from the base. True, I wanted to attract attention while my logical mind said that wasn't a good idea. But, hell, I hadn't been logical for a long time now.
When I exited the helicopter, I made sure that my katanas were secure on my back. Didn't want the special Coltan cutting blades getting lost. It took a short time to get to the entrance, at least the entrance I was going to use. But even though it took a short time to get to my entrance, it seemed a lot longer. I was afraid of finding Lillith and only to lose her.
The entrance I was using was the back of a small Terminator factory. I only say small because I had seen much bigger ones. And the fact that the majority of the base was a prison camp. As I went through the entrance I heard a sound and dodged.
A Terminator had followed me and I would have blood to show my love! I sliced off one of its arm as it shot part of my face off. Blood splattered onto my clothing as I healed. The next moment saw me slicing its head off.
But that wasn't the only one for the alarm had been sounded. Skynet knew Jash Connor was in the base, but didn't know why. It had created me and I had defeated it once in a different timeline.
More Terminators came at me and I sliced the metal down as it kept on trying to slice me. As they were my brothers, so to speak, they knew my weakness. This meant a lot of fancy dancing to protect my heart. Bullets came dangerously close to destroying my heart and I blacked out for a few seconds as one came too close.
I woke up while being slammed against the wall and my spine breaking. I yelled out as I took one katana to cut its gun in half and the other to slice its head off. More blood was taken from me and I ran looking for Lillith's room.
I managed to hide and lose the metal chasing me. I didn't know for how long so I hurried up searching. After what felt like hours I found her. Maybe by chance or maybe because life was giving me a break.
I cut open the door and Lillith stood up. She was ready to take death and all of its tricks. At least I assumed she was Lillith until I got a better view. Her breasts had become fuller and she looked more aged. More crazed was a better description, though. Was that my fault?
After a few nanoseconds she grinned at me. If she were more like me, she would've hugged me. But, really, we hadn't left on the best of terms. Plus, there were Terminators after us.
I signaled to her and she followed me.
"Duck!" I yelled as a Terminator shot at her and, since she had gotten down in time, hit me in the stomach.
"Jash!" She exclaimed as I cut off its arm. She had never seen me heal before. Not this version of her, at least. When Lillith recovered, which was very quickly, she took its gun.
"Swords." She said and shook her head.
"Katanas." I grumbled and the battle for our freedom continued.
Now that I had someone to protect, I became more cautious. I made sure shots missed me and, if they were to hit Lillith, I blocked them as best I could. Once we reached my exit, the actual base's entrance, we were both bloodied.
We couldn't outrun machines, but there could be a distraction. I ran to the nearest Terminator and cut its chest open and jumped back. Lillith took the hint and shot at the nuclear batteries. Then there was a giant explosion that blew us away. Very literally in fact.
Luckily we both recovered and were able to run away quickly. Well, Lillith was able to limp away at a good pace. Point was, we were both safe.
When I exited the helicopter, I made sure that my katanas were secure on my back. Didn't want the special Coltan cutting blades getting lost. It took a short time to get to the entrance, at least the entrance I was going to use. But even though it took a short time to get to my entrance, it seemed a lot longer. I was afraid of finding Lillith and only to lose her.
The entrance I was using was the back of a small Terminator factory. I only say small because I had seen much bigger ones. And the fact that the majority of the base was a prison camp. As I went through the entrance I heard a sound and dodged.
A Terminator had followed me and I would have blood to show my love! I sliced off one of its arm as it shot part of my face off. Blood splattered onto my clothing as I healed. The next moment saw me slicing its head off.
But that wasn't the only one for the alarm had been sounded. Skynet knew Jash Connor was in the base, but didn't know why. It had created me and I had defeated it once in a different timeline.
More Terminators came at me and I sliced the metal down as it kept on trying to slice me. As they were my brothers, so to speak, they knew my weakness. This meant a lot of fancy dancing to protect my heart. Bullets came dangerously close to destroying my heart and I blacked out for a few seconds as one came too close.
I woke up while being slammed against the wall and my spine breaking. I yelled out as I took one katana to cut its gun in half and the other to slice its head off. More blood was taken from me and I ran looking for Lillith's room.
I managed to hide and lose the metal chasing me. I didn't know for how long so I hurried up searching. After what felt like hours I found her. Maybe by chance or maybe because life was giving me a break.
I cut open the door and Lillith stood up. She was ready to take death and all of its tricks. At least I assumed she was Lillith until I got a better view. Her breasts had become fuller and she looked more aged. More crazed was a better description, though. Was that my fault?
After a few nanoseconds she grinned at me. If she were more like me, she would've hugged me. But, really, we hadn't left on the best of terms. Plus, there were Terminators after us.
I signaled to her and she followed me.
"Duck!" I yelled as a Terminator shot at her and, since she had gotten down in time, hit me in the stomach.
"Jash!" She exclaimed as I cut off its arm. She had never seen me heal before. Not this version of her, at least. When Lillith recovered, which was very quickly, she took its gun.
"Swords." She said and shook her head.
"Katanas." I grumbled and the battle for our freedom continued.
Now that I had someone to protect, I became more cautious. I made sure shots missed me and, if they were to hit Lillith, I blocked them as best I could. Once we reached my exit, the actual base's entrance, we were both bloodied.
We couldn't outrun machines, but there could be a distraction. I ran to the nearest Terminator and cut its chest open and jumped back. Lillith took the hint and shot at the nuclear batteries. Then there was a giant explosion that blew us away. Very literally in fact.
Luckily we both recovered and were able to run away quickly. Well, Lillith was able to limp away at a good pace. Point was, we were both safe.
Jameron (Get Out the Door)
Series: Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles
Pairing: John Connor and Cameron
Plot: John Connor reflects on how Cameron is dangerous and yet he loves her.
Pairing: John Connor and Cameron
Plot: John Connor reflects on how Cameron is dangerous and yet he loves her.
Monday, July 9, 2012
Courting of Lillith 1
Authors Note: This is for an rp I'm in. So there is a lot of back story there isn't room to mention here. As well as the rp there is my fanfic series (The Eternal Heart) that this mini-series relates to. So if you're lost just ask me and I can tell you what wouldn't be considered spoilers in those two mediums.
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The air in the room was thick with hours of boredom. Torturing a Terminator wasn't fun at all, it was just tedious. For me, it was like torturing a family member. I was a Xeno named Jash Connor. I was a pure biological Terminator unlike the one I was torturing for information. I could see all its wires and parts over the room.
Metal felt pain. Maybe not like a human, but it did. No one else in the Resistance understood that and I wasn't about to teach them. They wouldn't understand. Luckily I had been torturing the Terminator alone. It was lucky since only I heard the name Lillith.
I stepped out of the room and thought about her. The last time I had seen her had been at the massacre, pre-Judgment Day, at the hospital. The last time I had kissed her had been...before I had met the Lillith that currently existed.
According to the Terminator I had tortured, Lillith was alive and in the custody of Skynet. As I leaned against the wall, my comrades walked past me without saying a word. I was glad of that. My appearance of Terminator blood was probably what made them steer clear of me.
As I walked away from the room I debated about telling Marty, the man in charge now. The man who had killed John Connor. True, my love had turned to the crazy side but Marty had still killed him. Martin Bedell killed John Connor.
So should I tell him? We had shared a simple kiss, an unneeded addition to my long memory, but that had been it. We had both been happy but now Lillith could return to me. So should I tell Marty?
No, I shouldn't. If he questioned about why Lillith left me there were things I couldn't tell him. Things that would change his entire outlook about me. If he knew the depths I could go to and what sins I could commit, I'd lose his trust. And his comradeship was one of the only things helping me to move on.
I wouldn't tell Marty. So now I was on my own to rescue Lillith who I was afraid to meet. Who knows how she would be now. I went to the hanger and looked at the choppers. I heard a sound and then a voice.
It said, "What you doing?"
"Just going to do a scouting mission."
"Should you? I mean, Martin's kid and all?" Marcus asked.
"That won't be a problem." I replied. "I'll be back in a few hours."
Marcus looked at me, ready to argue, but he backed away. It took a few minutes, but I took off after the location said by the Terminator.
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The air in the room was thick with hours of boredom. Torturing a Terminator wasn't fun at all, it was just tedious. For me, it was like torturing a family member. I was a Xeno named Jash Connor. I was a pure biological Terminator unlike the one I was torturing for information. I could see all its wires and parts over the room.
Metal felt pain. Maybe not like a human, but it did. No one else in the Resistance understood that and I wasn't about to teach them. They wouldn't understand. Luckily I had been torturing the Terminator alone. It was lucky since only I heard the name Lillith.
I stepped out of the room and thought about her. The last time I had seen her had been at the massacre, pre-Judgment Day, at the hospital. The last time I had kissed her had been...before I had met the Lillith that currently existed.
According to the Terminator I had tortured, Lillith was alive and in the custody of Skynet. As I leaned against the wall, my comrades walked past me without saying a word. I was glad of that. My appearance of Terminator blood was probably what made them steer clear of me.
As I walked away from the room I debated about telling Marty, the man in charge now. The man who had killed John Connor. True, my love had turned to the crazy side but Marty had still killed him. Martin Bedell killed John Connor.
So should I tell him? We had shared a simple kiss, an unneeded addition to my long memory, but that had been it. We had both been happy but now Lillith could return to me. So should I tell Marty?
No, I shouldn't. If he questioned about why Lillith left me there were things I couldn't tell him. Things that would change his entire outlook about me. If he knew the depths I could go to and what sins I could commit, I'd lose his trust. And his comradeship was one of the only things helping me to move on.
I wouldn't tell Marty. So now I was on my own to rescue Lillith who I was afraid to meet. Who knows how she would be now. I went to the hanger and looked at the choppers. I heard a sound and then a voice.
It said, "What you doing?"
"Just going to do a scouting mission."
"Should you? I mean, Martin's kid and all?" Marcus asked.
"That won't be a problem." I replied. "I'll be back in a few hours."
Marcus looked at me, ready to argue, but he backed away. It took a few minutes, but I took off after the location said by the Terminator.
Sunday, July 8, 2012
Anderson Cooper is Gay (TYT)
A reaction to a Conservative radio host. This is a video from the TYT network.
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Friday, July 6, 2012
Dragon Champion (E.E.Knight)
Title: Dragon Champion
Series: The Age of Fire
Author: E.E.Knight
Released: 2005
Rating: 4.5/5
Basic Plot: AuRon goes through many adventures that take him around the world.
The Take on Dragon Mythology
The best part of this book is what it adds to dragons. These aren't merely awesome lizards flying around. There is a whole social structure and personality. Also, they kill and eat humans in this book. How it's shown makes it seem logical and I happened to always side with AuRon. If you are a fan of dragons you need to pick up this book.
Coming of Age Story
This, above all else, is a coming of age story. AuRon grows (both physically and mentally) throughout the book. He makes mistakes but, by the end, has grown up and made an island of dragons.
Sequels
This book has sequels that I will check out in the future. From what I've read the first two sequels will follow the other dragon children shown in the very start of this book. Personally, I can't wait to read from the POV of the one who felt as though he was betrayed.
Final Thoughts
I picked up this book, originally, because it was about dragons. Luckily it was a good read. It did take me a little bit to get through but that's mainly because of my vacation to California. I don't know when I'll be getting to the sequels.
Series: The Age of Fire
Author: E.E.Knight
Released: 2005
Rating: 4.5/5
Basic Plot: AuRon goes through many adventures that take him around the world.
The Take on Dragon Mythology
The best part of this book is what it adds to dragons. These aren't merely awesome lizards flying around. There is a whole social structure and personality. Also, they kill and eat humans in this book. How it's shown makes it seem logical and I happened to always side with AuRon. If you are a fan of dragons you need to pick up this book.
Coming of Age Story
This, above all else, is a coming of age story. AuRon grows (both physically and mentally) throughout the book. He makes mistakes but, by the end, has grown up and made an island of dragons.
Sequels
This book has sequels that I will check out in the future. From what I've read the first two sequels will follow the other dragon children shown in the very start of this book. Personally, I can't wait to read from the POV of the one who felt as though he was betrayed.
Final Thoughts
I picked up this book, originally, because it was about dragons. Luckily it was a good read. It did take me a little bit to get through but that's mainly because of my vacation to California. I don't know when I'll be getting to the sequels.
The Crazies (2010)
Title: The Crazies
Remake: Yes
Director: Breck Eisner
Starring: Radha Mitchell, Timothy Olyphant, and Danielle Panabaker
Rated: R
Released: 2010
Personal Rating: 3.5/5
Oscars: None
Basic Plot: About the inhabitants of a small Iowa town suddenly plagued by insanity and then death after a mysterious toxin contaminates their water supply.
Is It Scary
There are a few tense moments here. revrezner warned me to hold onto my bowl of food for fear I'd throw it up in fear (which didn't happen during the movie). I will say this movie doesn't rely too much on jump scares (except for a few parts). All in all I will say it wasn't that scary. That's not to say I wasn't cracking jokes in order not to stay calm. My last compliment on its scare tactics is that it takes killing people seriously. So them not being zombies is important.
Sequel
revrezner and I discussed the chance of a sequel. It does leave itself open for a sequel. However, I say that the sequel would be the same movie. Except it'll be a different town. So while I would love to see a sequel, it probably wouldn't be worth it. But I would still see a sequel if it came out.
No Real Buildup
This movie is very quick to get into the action. I would've loved to see it build up suspense more. That's really the biggest complaint I have. I was hoping for a nice buildup and then shit goes down. True, there is suspense but not enough. Not nearly enough as there could've been.
Final Thoughts
I have not seen the original so I can't compare it. Though a majority of people seem to think this is better than the original. I did enjoy Timothy Olyphant (the hotness on the screen) was awesome. They did a good job of explaining while holding the mystery. The greatest thing about this movie was the adventure of getting it (though that's a story for another day).
Remake: Yes
Director: Breck Eisner
Starring: Radha Mitchell, Timothy Olyphant, and Danielle Panabaker
Rated: R
Released: 2010
Personal Rating: 3.5/5
Oscars: None
Basic Plot: About the inhabitants of a small Iowa town suddenly plagued by insanity and then death after a mysterious toxin contaminates their water supply.
Is It Scary
There are a few tense moments here. revrezner warned me to hold onto my bowl of food for fear I'd throw it up in fear (which didn't happen during the movie). I will say this movie doesn't rely too much on jump scares (except for a few parts). All in all I will say it wasn't that scary. That's not to say I wasn't cracking jokes in order not to stay calm. My last compliment on its scare tactics is that it takes killing people seriously. So them not being zombies is important.
Sequel
revrezner and I discussed the chance of a sequel. It does leave itself open for a sequel. However, I say that the sequel would be the same movie. Except it'll be a different town. So while I would love to see a sequel, it probably wouldn't be worth it. But I would still see a sequel if it came out.
No Real Buildup
This movie is very quick to get into the action. I would've loved to see it build up suspense more. That's really the biggest complaint I have. I was hoping for a nice buildup and then shit goes down. True, there is suspense but not enough. Not nearly enough as there could've been.
Final Thoughts
I have not seen the original so I can't compare it. Though a majority of people seem to think this is better than the original. I did enjoy Timothy Olyphant (the hotness on the screen) was awesome. They did a good job of explaining while holding the mystery. The greatest thing about this movie was the adventure of getting it (though that's a story for another day).
Thursday, July 5, 2012
The Green: Love and Sex
Plague had been so kind to me. I, Matthias, hadn't done much for him. I had gotten him shot and nearly killed. But a simple bushel of flowers was all I could give him now. Not roses but lilies. For some reason, I thought lilies would be a much better match for him. At least as a gift from me.
The waves crashed against the rocky shore but could barely be heard in the shop. Plague would be waiting for me, but he could wait. As I turned my head I felt a new emotion. An emotion that was foreign to me even with Plague by my side. I shook my head as the woman walked by.
Though I didn't want to, I looked at her breasts. Lovely and full. They were yelling at me to do anything to them. To enjoy them any way that I wished. My eyes drifted downward to admire her legs. Her legs were mostly uncovered. Before the Gralg Outbreak it would've been because it was a choice, now it was by chance that her jeans had been torn.
My eyes drifted to her face and I wondered if her vagina hid infected eggs that would create a Blur. But the only thing that mattered now was the light that went off in her eyes as she looked at me. It promised something that my dick suddenly grew hard for. It yearned for it like it had never yearned for Plague.
"Hi," She said and walked close to me. I felt the need for her grow with each step. Plague! Remember Plague! "My name is Jillian."
"Uh, um, Matthias." I said and felt my cheeks grow warm from an unknown heat. I thought that the scientists might've talked about it before.
She smiled as she thought I was a virgin. I was only a virgin in the sense that I had never felt lust before. Not this kind of lust. What was it about this woman?
"Coffee?" I asked. That was a normal thing to ask, right?
"Sure." She replied and I forgot everything else. I was in a cloud of forgetfulness until I sat down with Jillian for coffee.
What she got and what I drank didn't matter. What mattered was that I had betrayed Plague. How could it get any worse?
"Gralg." Jillian finally said.
"What about it?" I asked as I remembered why I chose tea over coffee.
"Why did it happen?"
"Because people didn't leave well enough alone."
"What does that mean?"
I shrugged and nearly felt like puking up my coffee.
"Gralg used to be a drug to help people but it made them into rage zombies. And some people kept on testing and released it into the world."
Jillian laughed and I felt like kissing her. I just wanted to let myself go. But I couldn't. Plague. But as the conversation continued I realized we were both scared. We both needed to be reassured by any means necessary. Physical, though, it had to be physical.
"Where are you staying?" I asked and she leaned forward to kiss me. No one in the cafe looked at us. We were just two people trying to find escape in each other.
She took my hand and lead me to an apartment. The next few hours were full of pain and pleasure. Sweat and blood. Lust and moaning. When we were done we just fell asleep in each others arms.
When I woke up the next morning Jillian was no longer in my arms, nor was I in hers. I sat up slowly and felt the pain hit me in a big wave. True, it was my first time, and a lot of pain would be in that. What would Plague think?
Hopefully he would think that I had gotten into a fight and would be afraid for me. We would make up quickly and things would be back to normal. I couldn't stand to lose Plague. Especially since Jillian was gone now.
After a few minutes I put on my clothing. How certain articles got to certain places I would never know. Not unless I wanted to be horny again. And Plague would notice my erection if it happened in his presence.
I cleaned up as best I could so that no one, especially Plague, would get too worried. Yes, worried. That was the word to use. Before I left the apartment I checked around for my cell phone. It was lost and possibly broken.
Once I got out of the apartment I had to quickly head to where I thought our car was. I was wrong the first few times, but I finally found it. When I saw Plague's face I smiled and walked quickly towards him. Then I noticed something odd. Something was off.
"Plague?" I asked.
"Where did you get those scars?" He asked me.
"I..." I wanted to lie, but I couldn't. Not to the only one who had ever truly loved me. "I had sex with a woman. Jillian."
"A woman?" He asked and shook his head. "So you can hardly fuck me but you can have your way with a woman. Have it so rough that you bleed?"
I rubbed a scar from my chin to the bottom of my throat. "I-"
"I don't care." He yelled loudly. So loudly that some of the few people turned to look at us. "The fact is that I thought that you loved me. I thought you had ED. I thought you were doing your best to try and have sex with me."
"I do love you!"
"You have quite a way of showing it."
As the argument continued I wished it would stop. I didn't want this. I didn't want to lose Plague.
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I didn't mind that the motel room looked worse than the one I first met Plague in. I didn't mind that Gralg was slowly taking over the world. I didn't mind that I didn't know who I was. All that mattered was my only love sitting on the other bed. Plague wouldn't even touch me after our argument was finished. I wished that he'd hit me just so I knew he could touch me.
"Please say something." I begged and Plague just looked at me. Anger and hate were the only things that I could see in his eyes.
"Anything." I continued.
"Tell me why you fucked Jillian and I'll listen to you." Plague said and crossed his arms. With his former training I knew he could hurt me. Hell, the only reason he wasn't hurting me now was because he had orders. That man knew how to follow orders.
"I don't know what happened." I told him. "I've never encountered lust but I saw Jillian and some new emotion came over me. I wanted to ravage her in the flower shop."
"What flower shop?"
"The one I was going to buy you flowers in." I said and there was a long silence. "I didn't want to talk to Jillian because of...lust. In the end I couldn't help myself. I'm attracted to you, Plague, but not the lust like I felt for Jillian."
"Do you love her?" He asked.
"Hell no!" I yelled out and he, for once, was scared of me. "I love you and only you. Jillian offered something and the only reason I accepted was because I never felt lust before."
"Come on, you must have. You're..."
"Twenty-five years old."
"Exactly. You must have fucked in high school. I tried girls before just to make sure I was really gay."
"I've never been to high school."
This made Plague pause and I wanted to tell him the truth so bad. "You were home schooled?"
"No." I said and my head started to hurt. "Not home schooled."
"You seem somewhat educated." Plague said.
"Scientists." I replied and there was silence. "I woke up in a lab. Those are the first memories I remember. That's why I believe what George Hunder says."
Plague and I sat in silence again. But this time I thought I saw pity in Plague's eyes.
"So you're not human?" Plague finally asked.
I looked at him and just stared. Of course I was human! My real name was John Johnson. Was he trying to insult me?
"I'm human. What would make you think that I'm not?" I asked.
"You mean besides waking up in a lab with no memory?" He asked sarcastically.
"Yeah," I replied. "Besides that."
"Well, you haven't found anyone sexually appealing before Jillian." Plague said and had to gather himself before continuing. "Neither man nor woman, right?"
"Yes." I said and shuffled my feet.
"So what made Jillian different?" He asked and I tried to think of a reason. But all women looked the same to me. I never really cared about breasts or legs or anything else.
"I don't know." I replied and Plague jumped up.
"Exactly!" Plague exclaimed. "Exactly! It's because however you were programmed makes you think like that. Hell, maybe Jillian was sent to activate your sexual urges."
"And maybe I just had an odd incident."
"Bull fucking shit. Don't you realize how odd that is?"
"So I'm not human. I'm not John Johnson." I said sadly and Plague sat down beside me.
"So what if you're not human, I still love you." He said and put an arm around me. "Maybe now we'll finally have that great sex together."
"Is that all that matters to you?"
"No, what matters is that I don't know what you are. But what I do know is that there will be some instances where you won't be in control." He replied. "Mind you I don't like that you slept with Jillian and I probably won't ever get over that. But I still love you dearly. All we have to do is control that urge."
With that we kissed and all seemed to be forgiven. The kiss, though, seemed to be repulsive. But I held the kiss steady until Plague broke away.
"We will find Henry Johnson and he'll be able to help." Plague whispered into my ear.
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The Green Blog aka Gralg Contamination
The waves crashed against the rocky shore but could barely be heard in the shop. Plague would be waiting for me, but he could wait. As I turned my head I felt a new emotion. An emotion that was foreign to me even with Plague by my side. I shook my head as the woman walked by.
Though I didn't want to, I looked at her breasts. Lovely and full. They were yelling at me to do anything to them. To enjoy them any way that I wished. My eyes drifted downward to admire her legs. Her legs were mostly uncovered. Before the Gralg Outbreak it would've been because it was a choice, now it was by chance that her jeans had been torn.
My eyes drifted to her face and I wondered if her vagina hid infected eggs that would create a Blur. But the only thing that mattered now was the light that went off in her eyes as she looked at me. It promised something that my dick suddenly grew hard for. It yearned for it like it had never yearned for Plague.
"Hi," She said and walked close to me. I felt the need for her grow with each step. Plague! Remember Plague! "My name is Jillian."
"Uh, um, Matthias." I said and felt my cheeks grow warm from an unknown heat. I thought that the scientists might've talked about it before.
She smiled as she thought I was a virgin. I was only a virgin in the sense that I had never felt lust before. Not this kind of lust. What was it about this woman?
"Coffee?" I asked. That was a normal thing to ask, right?
"Sure." She replied and I forgot everything else. I was in a cloud of forgetfulness until I sat down with Jillian for coffee.
What she got and what I drank didn't matter. What mattered was that I had betrayed Plague. How could it get any worse?
"Gralg." Jillian finally said.
"What about it?" I asked as I remembered why I chose tea over coffee.
"Why did it happen?"
"Because people didn't leave well enough alone."
"What does that mean?"
I shrugged and nearly felt like puking up my coffee.
"Gralg used to be a drug to help people but it made them into rage zombies. And some people kept on testing and released it into the world."
Jillian laughed and I felt like kissing her. I just wanted to let myself go. But I couldn't. Plague. But as the conversation continued I realized we were both scared. We both needed to be reassured by any means necessary. Physical, though, it had to be physical.
"Where are you staying?" I asked and she leaned forward to kiss me. No one in the cafe looked at us. We were just two people trying to find escape in each other.
She took my hand and lead me to an apartment. The next few hours were full of pain and pleasure. Sweat and blood. Lust and moaning. When we were done we just fell asleep in each others arms.
When I woke up the next morning Jillian was no longer in my arms, nor was I in hers. I sat up slowly and felt the pain hit me in a big wave. True, it was my first time, and a lot of pain would be in that. What would Plague think?
Hopefully he would think that I had gotten into a fight and would be afraid for me. We would make up quickly and things would be back to normal. I couldn't stand to lose Plague. Especially since Jillian was gone now.
After a few minutes I put on my clothing. How certain articles got to certain places I would never know. Not unless I wanted to be horny again. And Plague would notice my erection if it happened in his presence.
I cleaned up as best I could so that no one, especially Plague, would get too worried. Yes, worried. That was the word to use. Before I left the apartment I checked around for my cell phone. It was lost and possibly broken.
Once I got out of the apartment I had to quickly head to where I thought our car was. I was wrong the first few times, but I finally found it. When I saw Plague's face I smiled and walked quickly towards him. Then I noticed something odd. Something was off.
"Plague?" I asked.
"Where did you get those scars?" He asked me.
"I..." I wanted to lie, but I couldn't. Not to the only one who had ever truly loved me. "I had sex with a woman. Jillian."
"A woman?" He asked and shook his head. "So you can hardly fuck me but you can have your way with a woman. Have it so rough that you bleed?"
I rubbed a scar from my chin to the bottom of my throat. "I-"
"I don't care." He yelled loudly. So loudly that some of the few people turned to look at us. "The fact is that I thought that you loved me. I thought you had ED. I thought you were doing your best to try and have sex with me."
"I do love you!"
"You have quite a way of showing it."
As the argument continued I wished it would stop. I didn't want this. I didn't want to lose Plague.
* * *
I didn't mind that the motel room looked worse than the one I first met Plague in. I didn't mind that Gralg was slowly taking over the world. I didn't mind that I didn't know who I was. All that mattered was my only love sitting on the other bed. Plague wouldn't even touch me after our argument was finished. I wished that he'd hit me just so I knew he could touch me.
"Please say something." I begged and Plague just looked at me. Anger and hate were the only things that I could see in his eyes.
"Anything." I continued.
"Tell me why you fucked Jillian and I'll listen to you." Plague said and crossed his arms. With his former training I knew he could hurt me. Hell, the only reason he wasn't hurting me now was because he had orders. That man knew how to follow orders.
"I don't know what happened." I told him. "I've never encountered lust but I saw Jillian and some new emotion came over me. I wanted to ravage her in the flower shop."
"What flower shop?"
"The one I was going to buy you flowers in." I said and there was a long silence. "I didn't want to talk to Jillian because of...lust. In the end I couldn't help myself. I'm attracted to you, Plague, but not the lust like I felt for Jillian."
"Do you love her?" He asked.
"Hell no!" I yelled out and he, for once, was scared of me. "I love you and only you. Jillian offered something and the only reason I accepted was because I never felt lust before."
"Come on, you must have. You're..."
"Twenty-five years old."
"Exactly. You must have fucked in high school. I tried girls before just to make sure I was really gay."
"I've never been to high school."
This made Plague pause and I wanted to tell him the truth so bad. "You were home schooled?"
"No." I said and my head started to hurt. "Not home schooled."
"You seem somewhat educated." Plague said.
"Scientists." I replied and there was silence. "I woke up in a lab. Those are the first memories I remember. That's why I believe what George Hunder says."
Plague and I sat in silence again. But this time I thought I saw pity in Plague's eyes.
"So you're not human?" Plague finally asked.
I looked at him and just stared. Of course I was human! My real name was John Johnson. Was he trying to insult me?
"I'm human. What would make you think that I'm not?" I asked.
"You mean besides waking up in a lab with no memory?" He asked sarcastically.
"Yeah," I replied. "Besides that."
"Well, you haven't found anyone sexually appealing before Jillian." Plague said and had to gather himself before continuing. "Neither man nor woman, right?"
"Yes." I said and shuffled my feet.
"So what made Jillian different?" He asked and I tried to think of a reason. But all women looked the same to me. I never really cared about breasts or legs or anything else.
"I don't know." I replied and Plague jumped up.
"Exactly!" Plague exclaimed. "Exactly! It's because however you were programmed makes you think like that. Hell, maybe Jillian was sent to activate your sexual urges."
"And maybe I just had an odd incident."
"Bull fucking shit. Don't you realize how odd that is?"
"So I'm not human. I'm not John Johnson." I said sadly and Plague sat down beside me.
"So what if you're not human, I still love you." He said and put an arm around me. "Maybe now we'll finally have that great sex together."
"Is that all that matters to you?"
"No, what matters is that I don't know what you are. But what I do know is that there will be some instances where you won't be in control." He replied. "Mind you I don't like that you slept with Jillian and I probably won't ever get over that. But I still love you dearly. All we have to do is control that urge."
With that we kissed and all seemed to be forgiven. The kiss, though, seemed to be repulsive. But I held the kiss steady until Plague broke away.
"We will find Henry Johnson and he'll be able to help." Plague whispered into my ear.
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The Green: Love and Sex 4
"So you're not human?" Plague finally asked.
I looked at him and just stared. Of course I was human! My real name was John Johnson. Was he trying to insult me?
"I'm human. What would make you think that I'm not?" I asked.
"You mean besides waking up in a lab with no memory?" He asked sarcastically.
"Yeah," I replied. "Besides that."
"Well, you haven't found anyone sexually appealing before Jillian." Plague said and had to gather himself before continuing. "Neither man nor woman, right?"
"Yes." I said and shuffled my feet.
"So what made Jillian different?" He asked and I tried to think of a reason. But all women looked the same to me. I never really cared about breasts or legs or anything else.
"I don't know." I replied and Plague jumped up.
"Exactly!" Plague exclaimed. "Exactly! It's because however you were programmed makes you think like that. Hell, maybe Jillian was sent to activate your sexual urges."
"And maybe I just had an odd incident."
"Bull fucking shit. Don't you realize how odd that is?"
"So I'm not human. I'm not John Johnson." I said sadly and Plague sat down beside me.
"So what if you're not human, I still love you." He said and put an arm around me. "Maybe now we'll finally have that great sex together."
"Is that all that matters to you?"
"No, what matters is that I don't know what you are. But what I do know is that there will be some instances where you won't be in control." He replied. "Mind you I don't like that you slept with Jillian and I probably won't ever get over that. But I still love you dearly. All we have to do is control that urge."
With that we kissed and all seemed to be forgiven. The kiss, though, seemed to be repulsive. But I held the kiss steady until Plague broke away.
"We will find Henry Johnson and he'll be able to help." Plague whispered into my ear.
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I looked at him and just stared. Of course I was human! My real name was John Johnson. Was he trying to insult me?
"I'm human. What would make you think that I'm not?" I asked.
"You mean besides waking up in a lab with no memory?" He asked sarcastically.
"Yeah," I replied. "Besides that."
"Well, you haven't found anyone sexually appealing before Jillian." Plague said and had to gather himself before continuing. "Neither man nor woman, right?"
"Yes." I said and shuffled my feet.
"So what made Jillian different?" He asked and I tried to think of a reason. But all women looked the same to me. I never really cared about breasts or legs or anything else.
"I don't know." I replied and Plague jumped up.
"Exactly!" Plague exclaimed. "Exactly! It's because however you were programmed makes you think like that. Hell, maybe Jillian was sent to activate your sexual urges."
"And maybe I just had an odd incident."
"Bull fucking shit. Don't you realize how odd that is?"
"So I'm not human. I'm not John Johnson." I said sadly and Plague sat down beside me.
"So what if you're not human, I still love you." He said and put an arm around me. "Maybe now we'll finally have that great sex together."
"Is that all that matters to you?"
"No, what matters is that I don't know what you are. But what I do know is that there will be some instances where you won't be in control." He replied. "Mind you I don't like that you slept with Jillian and I probably won't ever get over that. But I still love you dearly. All we have to do is control that urge."
With that we kissed and all seemed to be forgiven. The kiss, though, seemed to be repulsive. But I held the kiss steady until Plague broke away.
"We will find Henry Johnson and he'll be able to help." Plague whispered into my ear.
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Jameron/Camerah (Last to Know)
Series: Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles
Pairing 1: John Connor and Cameron
Pairing 2: Sarah Connor and Cameron
Plot: John gets angry at Sarah for dating Cameron, after Cameron dumped him.
Pairing 1: John Connor and Cameron
Pairing 2: Sarah Connor and Cameron
Plot: John gets angry at Sarah for dating Cameron, after Cameron dumped him.
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Ted (2012)
Title: Ted
Director: Seth MacFarlane
Starring: Mark Wahlberg, Mila Kunis, and Seth MacFarlane
Rated: R
Released: 2012
Personal Rating: 5/5
revrezner's Rating: 10/10
Oscars: N/A
Basic Plot: As the result of a childhood wish, John Bennett's teddy bear, Ted, came to life and has been by John's side ever since - a friendship that's tested when Lori, John's girlfriend of four years, wants more from their relationship.
Family Guy
If you like Family Guy you will adore this movie. If you hate family guy I'd suggest staying away. MacFarlane transfers from the animated/tv medium perfectly to the live action/movie medium. Within the first two minutes it was confirmed that the same humor from Family Guy would be used in this movie.
Has One of the Best Fight Scenes Ever
While in the theater revrezner said that the fight between John and Ted was the best fight scene he had seen. Myself, I thought that it was the best scene in the movie. Not only is there a fight between a teddy bear and a grown man, but the teddy bear kicks the man's ass. What is not to love about that?!
I Cried
I hardly cry in movies or tv shows. The Walking Dead and Terminator Salvation are among the few that have made me cry. There is a scene in this movie that is heart breaking. It made someone in the theater cry out, "This is bullshit!" because it broke her heart so much. So bring tissues.
Final Thoughts
This is a must see movie. It's an amazing comedy and has good actors to play the part. The role of John is a good role for Mark Wahlberg. There are so many good lines that I could take up a few blog posts saying my favorites. So what are you waiting for?! Go see this movie now!
Director: Seth MacFarlane
Starring: Mark Wahlberg, Mila Kunis, and Seth MacFarlane
Rated: R
Released: 2012
Personal Rating: 5/5
revrezner's Rating: 10/10
Oscars: N/A
Basic Plot: As the result of a childhood wish, John Bennett's teddy bear, Ted, came to life and has been by John's side ever since - a friendship that's tested when Lori, John's girlfriend of four years, wants more from their relationship.
Family Guy
If you like Family Guy you will adore this movie. If you hate family guy I'd suggest staying away. MacFarlane transfers from the animated/tv medium perfectly to the live action/movie medium. Within the first two minutes it was confirmed that the same humor from Family Guy would be used in this movie.
Has One of the Best Fight Scenes Ever
While in the theater revrezner said that the fight between John and Ted was the best fight scene he had seen. Myself, I thought that it was the best scene in the movie. Not only is there a fight between a teddy bear and a grown man, but the teddy bear kicks the man's ass. What is not to love about that?!
I Cried
I hardly cry in movies or tv shows. The Walking Dead and Terminator Salvation are among the few that have made me cry. There is a scene in this movie that is heart breaking. It made someone in the theater cry out, "This is bullshit!" because it broke her heart so much. So bring tissues.
Final Thoughts
This is a must see movie. It's an amazing comedy and has good actors to play the part. The role of John is a good role for Mark Wahlberg. There are so many good lines that I could take up a few blog posts saying my favorites. So what are you waiting for?! Go see this movie now!
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
The Green: Love and Sex 3
I didn't mind that the motel room looked worse than the one I first met Plague in. I didn't mind that Gralg was slowly taking over the world. I didn't mind that I didn't know who I was. All that mattered was my only love sitting on the other bed. Plague wouldn't even touch me after our argument was finished. I wished that he'd hit me just so I knew he could touch me.
"Please say something." I begged and Plague just looked at me. Anger and hate were the only things that I could see in his eyes.
"Anything." I continued.
"Tell me why you fucked Jillian and I'll listen to you." Plague said and crossed his arms. With his former training I knew he could hurt me. Hell, the only reason he wasn't hurting me now was because he had orders. That man knew how to follow orders.
"I don't know what happened." I told him. "I've never encountered lust but I saw Jillian and some new emotion came over me. I wanted to ravage her in the flower shop."
"What flower shop?"
"The one I was going to buy you flowers in." I said and there was a long silence. "I didn't want to talk to Jillian because of...lust. In the end I couldn't help myself. I'm attracted to you, Plague, but not the lust like I felt for Jillian."
"Do you love her?" He asked.
"Hell no!" I yelled out and he, for once, was scared of me. "I love you and only you. Jillian offered something and the only reason I accepted was because I never felt lust before."
"Come on, you must have. You're..."
"Twenty-five years old."
"Exactly. You must have fucked in high school. I tried girls before just to make sure I was really gay."
"I've never been to high school."
This made Plague pause and I wanted to tell him the truth so bad. "You were home schooled?"
"No." I said and my head started to hurt. "Not home schooled."
"You seem somewhat educated." Plague said.
"Scientists." I replied and there was silence. "I woke up in a lab. Those are the first memories I remember. That's why I believe what George Hunder says."
Plague and I sat in silence again. But this time I thought I saw pity in Plague's eyes.
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"Please say something." I begged and Plague just looked at me. Anger and hate were the only things that I could see in his eyes.
"Anything." I continued.
"Tell me why you fucked Jillian and I'll listen to you." Plague said and crossed his arms. With his former training I knew he could hurt me. Hell, the only reason he wasn't hurting me now was because he had orders. That man knew how to follow orders.
"I don't know what happened." I told him. "I've never encountered lust but I saw Jillian and some new emotion came over me. I wanted to ravage her in the flower shop."
"What flower shop?"
"The one I was going to buy you flowers in." I said and there was a long silence. "I didn't want to talk to Jillian because of...lust. In the end I couldn't help myself. I'm attracted to you, Plague, but not the lust like I felt for Jillian."
"Do you love her?" He asked.
"Hell no!" I yelled out and he, for once, was scared of me. "I love you and only you. Jillian offered something and the only reason I accepted was because I never felt lust before."
"Come on, you must have. You're..."
"Twenty-five years old."
"Exactly. You must have fucked in high school. I tried girls before just to make sure I was really gay."
"I've never been to high school."
This made Plague pause and I wanted to tell him the truth so bad. "You were home schooled?"
"No." I said and my head started to hurt. "Not home schooled."
"You seem somewhat educated." Plague said.
"Scientists." I replied and there was silence. "I woke up in a lab. Those are the first memories I remember. That's why I believe what George Hunder says."
Plague and I sat in silence again. But this time I thought I saw pity in Plague's eyes.
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Sunday, July 1, 2012
Saturday, June 30, 2012
Let's Play Silent Hill: Shattered Memories (Part 25-27)
I play a Silent Hill game. I use a walkthrough so I don't waste too much of your time.
Friday, June 29, 2012
My Opinion: TDKR Batman Death Rumors
What do I think about the rumors about Batman dying and will I break out into tears?
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Dean and Sam (Let the Monster Rise)
Series: Supernatural
Relationship: Sam and Dean Winchester
Universe: AU
Plot: Dean has tried to protect Sam from the harsh realities of the supernatural world (though he has told Sam only Supernatural 101), and Sam has found out about the Supernatural world. Arguing then ensues.
Relationship: Sam and Dean Winchester
Universe: AU
Plot: Dean has tried to protect Sam from the harsh realities of the supernatural world (though he has told Sam only Supernatural 101), and Sam has found out about the Supernatural world. Arguing then ensues.
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
The Green: Love and Sex 2
When I woke up the next morning Jillian was no longer in my arms, nor was I in hers. I sat up slowly and felt the pain hit me in a big wave. True, it was my first time, and a lot of pain would be in that. What would Plague think?
Hopefully he would think that I had gotten into a fight and would be afraid for me. We would make up quickly and things would be back to normal. I couldn't stand to lose Plague. Especially since Jillian was gone now.
After a few minutes I put on my clothing. How certain articles got to certain places I would never know. Not unless I wanted to be horny again. And Plague would notice my erection if it happened in his presence.
I cleaned up as best I could so that no one, especially Plague, would get too worried. Yes, worried. That was the word to use. Before I left the apartment I checked around for my cell phone. It was lost and possibly broken.
Once I got out of the apartment I had to quickly head to where I thought our car was. I was wrong the first few times, but I finally found it. When I saw Plague's face I smiled and walked quickly towards him. Then I noticed something odd. Something was off.
"Plague?" I asked.
"Where did you get those scars?" He asked me.
"I..." I wanted to lie, but I couldn't. Not to the only one who had ever truly loved me. "I had sex with a woman. Jillian."
"A woman?" He asked and shook his head. "So you can hardly fuck me but you can have your way with a woman. Have it so rough that you bleed?"
I rubbed a scar from my chin to the bottom of my throat. "I-"
"I don't care." He yelled loudly. So loudly that some of the few people turned to look at us. "The fact is that I thought that you loved me. I thought you had ED. I thought you were doing your best to try and have sex with me."
"I do love you!"
"You have quite a way of showing it."
As the argument continued I wished it would stop. I didn't want this. I didn't want to lose Plague.
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Hopefully he would think that I had gotten into a fight and would be afraid for me. We would make up quickly and things would be back to normal. I couldn't stand to lose Plague. Especially since Jillian was gone now.
After a few minutes I put on my clothing. How certain articles got to certain places I would never know. Not unless I wanted to be horny again. And Plague would notice my erection if it happened in his presence.
I cleaned up as best I could so that no one, especially Plague, would get too worried. Yes, worried. That was the word to use. Before I left the apartment I checked around for my cell phone. It was lost and possibly broken.
Once I got out of the apartment I had to quickly head to where I thought our car was. I was wrong the first few times, but I finally found it. When I saw Plague's face I smiled and walked quickly towards him. Then I noticed something odd. Something was off.
"Plague?" I asked.
"Where did you get those scars?" He asked me.
"I..." I wanted to lie, but I couldn't. Not to the only one who had ever truly loved me. "I had sex with a woman. Jillian."
"A woman?" He asked and shook his head. "So you can hardly fuck me but you can have your way with a woman. Have it so rough that you bleed?"
I rubbed a scar from my chin to the bottom of my throat. "I-"
"I don't care." He yelled loudly. So loudly that some of the few people turned to look at us. "The fact is that I thought that you loved me. I thought you had ED. I thought you were doing your best to try and have sex with me."
"I do love you!"
"You have quite a way of showing it."
As the argument continued I wished it would stop. I didn't want this. I didn't want to lose Plague.
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