New Sweetheart Kerubi and Lasirus

 The cuteness continues!

On the left is the Sweetheart Kerubi. I am in just love with the stance of this pet. I can see it wiggling its cute little tush right before pouncing. Maybe it's the overdose of cats wiggling their butts before pouncing that's biasing me in this manner.

On the right is the Sweetheart Lasirus. This one looks like it's asking for a belly rub. Just look at the cute smile it has! I can also see its cute little feet kicking out from pleasure caused by the belly rub you'll be giving it.

Jash Talks: Early V-Day

I talk about rough drafts, some fan love I've gotten in the past week, and pudding among other things.

If you would like to send questions/topics for the next live show just comment below and they will be answered!

Also go to my twitter (@jashykins) to look for updates about the next live show!

Green Man in the Rain (link)

-This is a Mature Story (if in content if not plot)
-It's a The Avengers fanfic
-It's a Bruce Banner/The Hulk fanfic

You can read it HERE

The Walking Dead "After" Review

After the mid-season finale I was more than ready for the next episode of this amazing series. Well...after days of recovering from Hershel's death because that was one of the most painful things I have seen on tv recently. I mean...what the bloody fuck!

We get to see what has happened since the shit hit the fan last episode.

One part revrezner had to make sure I was doing okay with. Since I loathe spoilers he was stuck in a tough place of how much he could warn me about. The part was where you see Hershel's head and Michonne stabs it was the moment he was worried that I would have problems dealing with (I went into a little breakdown when Hershel died).

But I did write a post on Hershel's death and so watched him dying a few times before viewing last night's episode and I think that's why I didn't have another breakdown.

Carl was more than annoying last night. I know that he's supposed to be a child, but he's just so damn annoying. I don't like kids in fiction for the most part and Carl didn't change my mind. He was just too damn cocky and didn't manage to provide me any amusement.

Michonne really took center stage this episode. We get more of an inside look into her head and how she's dealing with things. We get to see that all she wants to do is shutdown from the world and ends up deciding to go to the two Grimes at the end. Making this one of the very few episodes with a happy ending.

I will say that Carl and Michonne's stories parallel each other with them both figuring out their place. Carl goes all child-like through his debate and Michonne handles it like a troubled adult.

Also: PUDDING!

The Eternal Heart: Angelic Savior 4

The night was just beginning and it felt like the sun should already be rising on the horizon. I hated the man beside me. His dark skin seemed to help him blend into the night and he tried to keep his eyes averted from the sight of me.

"Don't people usually talk on guard duty?" I asked as the silence got to me. If I was going to spend a long night with Barnes, I needed some sound.

"Some people do." Barnes said and sounded as lifeless as the metal he said he hated.

"And you don't talk to people while on guard duty?"

"You're not a person. You're just some metal with the face of a person."

I was more than insulted with that comment. I wasn't metal with the face of a person, I was a person with my humanity replaced with metal. I was an abomination, but I was still human.

"No," I told him. "I was operated on by Skynet and made to be...what I am today."

"At least you're metal that knows your place." Barnes said, with a disturbing smile on his face. "You should just kill yourself and be done with it. Or I'll help you if your programming doesn't allow it."

"The parts of my Skynet programming that allowed it to control me was erased when I came here. So I could kill myself if I wanted to." I told Barnes and had to resist leaving him paralyzed for that comment. "And my place is with the Resistance."

"And in bed with John Connor?" He replied and I turned to him surprised. "I've guessed it, especially with how Kate has been acting lately."

"I haven't had sex with him." I said with something unsaid that my comrade picked up on.

"You don't have a chance with him." Barnes said with a smug smile on his face.

I hated that smile because it reinforced what I already knew. No matter how much I loved John, he would never allow me to get too close. Not close enough to be his wife and not even close enough to have an affair with him. All I'd be able to do is look at him and see what could have been.

"You don't know that." I replied, pushing my doubts to the deepest part of my mind.

"Metal and humans shouldn't mix. It's unnatural." Barnes stated. "You're the enemy and to think differently is to start down the road of becoming a Grey."

"But I feel like a human." I hissed. "I need to sleep and I need to eat. Hell, I can feel every emotion that you can. You're not more than me, you're just the same."

"All your emotions were created, they aren't real."

"How can they be fake if I feel them? If I can react to them?"

"All your reactions are programmed and you react accordingly."

I knew what he said could be true. Who I was before could've been radically different than how I am now. I could've used to be someone who would've sided with Skynet in an instant.

I could've been someone that wanted to destroy all of humanity and so gave my body to Skynet for that reason. No one would ever know.

"You know I was human before. How do you think it feels to be living as the enemy? As an abomination?" I said and that seemed to make Barnes silent.

He was a big supporter of John Connor and hated anything related to Skynet with a passion. He was a great man to have at your side and someone you wanted to never fight. That's how strong his passion was.

I knew, or at least hoped, that he was silent because he was imagining waking up to metal underneath his skin. The thought that all that he had been before had been tainted by the thing that he hated most. That he could never go back to what he had been before.

I also knew that if he thought this he would never admit it. He was that kind of man.

I noticed him looking out in the distance and turned my attention outward. Skynet had made me to be a fighter but hadn't added too much to my human sight. It probably thought I could get enough information from my hearing.

"Do you see anything?" Barnes asked me.

"A mass of something." I replied.

Barnes said nothing but an angry retort seemed to be on the edge of his lips.
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New York City Will See a Subeta Meetup

Info From and Where to Look For More Info HERE

Subeta is a site that has meetups. Yep, people on the site meet together and...I'm not sure what craziness is involved since I've never been to one.

The next one will happen on March 22, 2014 (a Saturday if you're wondering) and the location is in New York City and will last from 1-4PM Eastern Standard Time (same time in Subeta time too).

So who from the site staff will be there?

Jessi, Judgement, hagane, Darling, Amanda, Mary, and pumpkins will be attending this one. There is also the possibility of even more coming too!

Seems there will be questions being answered so if you have any questions you're dying to ask: GO!

They expect a big turnout this time around so they ask that you RSVP on their Facebook page to alert them to your future presence.

Will your favorite blogger be going to this one?

Are you SERIOUSLY looking at another blogger?!

I meant me, smartass.

No, I won't be going because I live a few states away and there is no chance that I'll have the money to go this time around.

But if you do want to talk about me (for whatever reason my big ego is telling me you will): my Subeta Username is currently Eoptis and I'll alert you all to any changes to my username.

Hershel's Death

The Season 4 Mid-Season Finale left me in tears and in need of my inhaler. It took awhile for me to calm down because of one character's death. Someone I had grown attached to and was originally supposed to be killed off in Season 2.

Yep, I'm talking about Hershel.

I figure that since the second half of Season 4 will start to air tonight that this would be a good time to talk about this death. Since it is relevant and I've had a little bit to learn not to cry upon the mention of this event.

I think the reason I get so emotional over Hershel was the same reason I got sad when Dale died.

Both characters were the heart of the group. They were the ones to go: Hey, maybe we shouldn't do this or else there will be no point in living.

Without Hershel, the second heart of the group and someone who acted as a doctor, the group will have a hard time surviving when they reunite. Not only will their medical needs have trouble getting taken care of, but the morality of the group might start to crumble fast.

Not only is the loss of Hershel going to be felt down the line, but the scene was so well done and induced a ton of tears.

Hershel seemed to have accepted death and didn't look weak when he knew he was going to die (bad ass material there!) and that might have been due to the strength he saw in Rick. No one really thought that The Governor was going to spare him and we were all just begging for The Governor to kill him already so we wouldn't cry so damn much.