For many years I had been living alone. And why would I want to be with anyone? Anyone I would travel with, or form any kind of attachment to, I would have to keep in the dark. I couldn't tell anyone the true version of events. If I did, then there would be a chance my secrets could be found out.
While this went through my mind I looked over at the Jedi Master. Helped with the Force, he was able to use his powers in minor ways to speed the process along. If I had wanted to I could've told Qui-Gon where the Heart of the Darkness was located. But then I'd be giving up the lives of my friends. Not good friends, but friends nonetheless.
"You having better luck than me, Master Jedi?" I asked after feeling the silence getting to me. Silence when there was no one around was one thing. But when a person was a few feet away from you and there was no conversation, that was different.
"I think we're doing the same amount of work." He replied, sighed, and then turned to look at me. "Such an ancient ship, full of dark side energy, is impossible to find. I don't know why I continue to seek it. Even when the Council gave me the mission, they knew there was a possibility I wouldn't be able to find it. They gave me a way out if I wanted."
I sensed something and pretended not to notice. Instead I started looking through a new batch of files. "Maybe you have something to prove?" I said casually.
"I'm a Jedi, we don't let our personal lives affect us on missions."
"You're also a living and feeling being." I said as I turned to him. "I think even Jedi are affected by emotions like the rest of us."
Qui-Gon was quiet and slight signs showed his composure starting to falter. After a few seconds he gained full control of himself and replied, "You are right. I failed to train my former Padawan Xanatos."
"Did he die?" I asked.
"No, he turned to the dark side and left the Jedi Order."
"So you trying to find the Heart of the Darkness is you trying to redeem yourself?"
Qui-Gon turned back to looking through the files and didn't answer my question. Many more minutes of silence filled the time we both spent looking through even more files. Even though my attention was focused on the task at hand, I found myself glancing at the Jedi Master from time to time.
I had felt a small amount of attraction towards him when we first met, but I didn't feel anything strong. I couldn't feel emotions like a normal human anymore, so I didn't know for certain that attraction is what I was feeling or how it would affect me.
"Do you know anymore about the Heart of the Darkness other than the Sith are afraid what it contains?" Qui-Gon finally asked.
In my early days I wouldn't know how to answer him without giving away the truth. But I was much older now.
I replied, "Yes, I do. The Sith built a ship to contain the Dark Side. Well, at least a high density of the Dark Side. This feat was done better than expected. Five of the Sith were chosen to fly the Heart of the Darkness, but they never arrived at their destination. Some say those Sith repented and destroyed the ship. Yet others say that the dark side overtook them and decided to take the ship into hiding until a later point in time."
"At which point the Dark Side will attempt to take over the Republic." Qui-Gon finished. "You know your history."
"I know legends." I said and realized I had fooled a Jedi Master. It wasn't the first time, nor would it be the last, but something felt different this time. Something felt wrong about fooling such a strong and wise being. He should've been just another human Jedi, but he wasn't. Not to me.
I realized the feeling of attraction and noticed that they were stronger than they had been in a long time. I also realized that I didn't know how to resist them. Most likely because I didn't want to. I wanted to feel a real emotion again.
"But that history is a lie." I finally said. "I planted it and let it flourish."
-----------------------------------------------------
Inbetween tumblr
Monday, February 25, 2013
Inbetween: Death of the Five 2
Friday, February 22, 2013
Elementary "Possibility Two" Review
Sherlock takes Watson on as his apprentice.
Supernatural "Man's Best Friend with Benefits" Review
Witch Cop kills people in his sleep. dun dun DUN!
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Cult "You're Next" Review
I talk about the Pilot of the show Cult.
Inbetween: Death of the Five 1
About the Inbetween Series:
I have some ideas for stories that I don’t usually write because my four main series take up so much time (that and other blog work). So I decided that between writing sections of my main series, to write short little fanfics.
These fanfics will be HIGHLY self-indulgent. Because I work so hard on my other series that I deserve a little break.
Sometimes some of these “Inbetween Fics” might be samples of later works (that might turn out to be either a fanfic series OR original series).
About "Death of Five":
An idea has been going through my head for awhile about a character that I'm calling Rinn (at least for the moment). I have partially (not fully, since that'd mean I'd have outlined the series already) thought up the story I'd tell about her. From her beginnings all the way to where she's basically all alone in the universe. If I ever do get to writing Rinn's entire story (which might not be for a number of years) "Death of the Five" will probably take place near the end of it. I decided this part would be the best to tell for Inbetween since it'd be the easiest to shorten and has a clear cut beginning and end to it.
Where It Takes Place in the Star Wars Timeline:
While this is an AU fic, I have decided on a rough outline where this could take place. It'd be before Episode I and before Qui-Gon Jinn took Obi-Wan Kenobi as his apprentice.
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Spending any amount of time on a space station made you lose sense of reality. Reality, of course, being the sense of the wind on your face. Even if that wind would kill you if you took the air in with your lungs. But living on a space station also allowed me to be a drifter. Because, really, who would look at a simple human pilot? Especially if the pilot could take care of her own ship.
No doubt people would ask questions behind my back, but it would never get to the point where I'd be under any form of investigation.
But any opinions that were thrown about the young, at least that's how my body appeared, drifter Rinn wasn't any concern of mine now. This was due to me being part of a two person team that would search for something ancient. Something so ancient that many didn't believe it really existed. And even those that believed it existed didn't want to find it due to its supposed ties to the Sith Order.
At least one was willing to find out if it really existed and then go to it. I finished making myself presentable for the Jedi Master and then went over to my computer. I did a brief overview of the top stories on the holonet, but nothing seemed interesting to me. Of course, once someone lived as long as I did, not much could stimulate my interest.
There were only so many times I could hear about a civil war, famine, or the like before I became disinterested. This isn't to say they weren't important, but I saw a bigger picture. A never ending portrait of pain. So worrying about one problem, no matter how important, was useless since it would always be eclipsed by a future one.
So checking the holonet didn't take long and I went to check on something vastly more important. Something that was one problem that I actually gave a damn about. Mainly because if the Five were found out they could be awakened and then all hell would be let lose.
I started to make sure the Five's location was still safe and secret. My memories of them started to flood my mind. They crashed over me. While things could go wrong if they were discovered, I hadn't been able to kill them. I had decided shortly after the Sith became a children's bedtime story, to cryogenically freeze them instead of ending their lives.
While they had been a plague onto anything good, and strong in what this galaxy's inhabitants called the Dark Side of the Force, they had still been my comrades a long time ago in another galaxy. When the Massacre had happened we had been all that was left of the Navigators.
It had been...I shook my head and shut down my computer as soon as I was assured that the Five's location was still secret. That's all that mattered. I left my cabin and walked to where I was supposed to meet this Jedi Master.
I waited by the door until it opened and he walked through it. He was a tall human male. He seemed to be in his late 50's or early 60's. His hair was long and he had a small little beard. All in all, a very impressive build. His physique radiated power, though I sensed calmness in him that would temper any rage. At least rage that would lead to the Dark Side.
"Welcome, Master Qui-Gon Jinn." I said and felt something that I hadn't felt in some time. Being a Navigator, even though I had used The Cure, meant certain emotions had become foreign to me. Or at least I only felt them on rare occasions. "I am here to help you on your mission. Whatever that might be."
I tried to keep silent that I knew his mission. Because I wasn't ranked high enough, at least not now at this point in time, to have the information.
"You are Rinn?" He asked and I nodded. "I am continuing my mission to find the Heart of the Darkness."
"You mean the ship that holds something that even the Sith were afraid of?" I asked. Pretending to only know the common myth that was told about it. Pretending not to know what the ship really held.
Qui-Gon gave a subtle smile to reassure me as he mistook any sign of nervousness as a fear of him. I thought I was hiding my secrets from him and so it couldn't be that. But maybe he was sensing my confusion about what I was feeling.
And with Qui-Gon's reassuring smile it hit me. I was feeling what a normal human would describe as being attracted to him.
---------------------------------------
Inbetween tumblr
I have some ideas for stories that I don’t usually write because my four main series take up so much time (that and other blog work). So I decided that between writing sections of my main series, to write short little fanfics.
These fanfics will be HIGHLY self-indulgent. Because I work so hard on my other series that I deserve a little break.
Sometimes some of these “Inbetween Fics” might be samples of later works (that might turn out to be either a fanfic series OR original series).
About "Death of Five":
An idea has been going through my head for awhile about a character that I'm calling Rinn (at least for the moment). I have partially (not fully, since that'd mean I'd have outlined the series already) thought up the story I'd tell about her. From her beginnings all the way to where she's basically all alone in the universe. If I ever do get to writing Rinn's entire story (which might not be for a number of years) "Death of the Five" will probably take place near the end of it. I decided this part would be the best to tell for Inbetween since it'd be the easiest to shorten and has a clear cut beginning and end to it.
Where It Takes Place in the Star Wars Timeline:
While this is an AU fic, I have decided on a rough outline where this could take place. It'd be before Episode I and before Qui-Gon Jinn took Obi-Wan Kenobi as his apprentice.
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Spending any amount of time on a space station made you lose sense of reality. Reality, of course, being the sense of the wind on your face. Even if that wind would kill you if you took the air in with your lungs. But living on a space station also allowed me to be a drifter. Because, really, who would look at a simple human pilot? Especially if the pilot could take care of her own ship.
No doubt people would ask questions behind my back, but it would never get to the point where I'd be under any form of investigation.
But any opinions that were thrown about the young, at least that's how my body appeared, drifter Rinn wasn't any concern of mine now. This was due to me being part of a two person team that would search for something ancient. Something so ancient that many didn't believe it really existed. And even those that believed it existed didn't want to find it due to its supposed ties to the Sith Order.
At least one was willing to find out if it really existed and then go to it. I finished making myself presentable for the Jedi Master and then went over to my computer. I did a brief overview of the top stories on the holonet, but nothing seemed interesting to me. Of course, once someone lived as long as I did, not much could stimulate my interest.
There were only so many times I could hear about a civil war, famine, or the like before I became disinterested. This isn't to say they weren't important, but I saw a bigger picture. A never ending portrait of pain. So worrying about one problem, no matter how important, was useless since it would always be eclipsed by a future one.
So checking the holonet didn't take long and I went to check on something vastly more important. Something that was one problem that I actually gave a damn about. Mainly because if the Five were found out they could be awakened and then all hell would be let lose.
I started to make sure the Five's location was still safe and secret. My memories of them started to flood my mind. They crashed over me. While things could go wrong if they were discovered, I hadn't been able to kill them. I had decided shortly after the Sith became a children's bedtime story, to cryogenically freeze them instead of ending their lives.
While they had been a plague onto anything good, and strong in what this galaxy's inhabitants called the Dark Side of the Force, they had still been my comrades a long time ago in another galaxy. When the Massacre had happened we had been all that was left of the Navigators.
It had been...I shook my head and shut down my computer as soon as I was assured that the Five's location was still secret. That's all that mattered. I left my cabin and walked to where I was supposed to meet this Jedi Master.
I waited by the door until it opened and he walked through it. He was a tall human male. He seemed to be in his late 50's or early 60's. His hair was long and he had a small little beard. All in all, a very impressive build. His physique radiated power, though I sensed calmness in him that would temper any rage. At least rage that would lead to the Dark Side.
"Welcome, Master Qui-Gon Jinn." I said and felt something that I hadn't felt in some time. Being a Navigator, even though I had used The Cure, meant certain emotions had become foreign to me. Or at least I only felt them on rare occasions. "I am here to help you on your mission. Whatever that might be."
I tried to keep silent that I knew his mission. Because I wasn't ranked high enough, at least not now at this point in time, to have the information.
"You are Rinn?" He asked and I nodded. "I am continuing my mission to find the Heart of the Darkness."
"You mean the ship that holds something that even the Sith were afraid of?" I asked. Pretending to only know the common myth that was told about it. Pretending not to know what the ship really held.
Qui-Gon gave a subtle smile to reassure me as he mistook any sign of nervousness as a fear of him. I thought I was hiding my secrets from him and so it couldn't be that. But maybe he was sensing my confusion about what I was feeling.
And with Qui-Gon's reassuring smile it hit me. I was feeling what a normal human would describe as being attracted to him.
---------------------------------------
Inbetween tumblr
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Shipping Confessions: Destiel (SPN)
Yes, I am a fan of Supernatural. Though I didn't start watching the series until around its seventh season. Why that long? Well, I didn't watch TV around the time it premiered. Anyways, since I waited so long I had heard about the ship of Destiel (Dean Winchester and Castiel). So I guess you could say I was biased in favor of this ship?
Not really. I'm not a big slash fan (aka two men being in a romantic relationship), so I don't think I was that biased in that way. However, I quickly became a Destiel shipper after viewing episodes where Dean and Castiel appeared.
Unlike my love of the Camerah ship, being a Destiel shipper is very much the norm. In fact, there seems to be so much support in favor of this ship that it might just as well be canon. Not because everyone agrees with it, but because there are so many people pushing for this ship.
Misha Collins (the actor who plays Castiel) has pronounced Destiel canon. Well, he says that he plays Castiel like his character has romantic feelings for Dean. To us Destiel shippers that makes it canon, but it is not yet official.
One may point out that Dean Winchester is clearly heterosexual (due to how many women he hits on and sleeps with) and so can't be gay. So, therefore, being in a sexual relationship with Castiel (a MALE) is impossible.
I don't think Dean is gay. He does sleep with a lot of women and even had a long term relationship with Lisa Braeden. So, of course, he isn't gay. However, I believe him to be bisexual with a strong preference towards women. This would explain why we haven't seen Dean in a sexual relationship with a man (though there could be those that aren't shown).
Dean has shown slight signs that he's attracted to men (take the Season 8 Episode "Everybody Hates Hitler"). So a relationship between him and Castiel would work. If only looking at Dean's sexuality.
But what about Castiel?
As I said previously: Misha Collins, the actor who plays Castiel, says he plays the character as if he was sexually attracted to Dean. And an actor's views on the character he/she plays is very important.
If you want to disregard Collins' opinion, though, there are many instances throughout the series that show that Castiel loves Dean. If we want to look at a big one, Castiel risks everything for Dean. Castiel leaves his fellow angels to help Dean and Sam to stop the end of the world. After that Castiel even damns himself in the mistaken belief that he's helping Dean.
Castiel hasn't shown a clear sexuality in the series. It's more like he's a child and is slowly learning about how to be human. But it can be safely assumed that he's at least bisexual since he loves Dean.
While I am a big Destiel shipper, there's something that confuses the hell out of me. It seems like a good majority of Destiel shippers (not including me) hate the character of Sam Winchester (Dean's younger brother). I was not aware of this when I became a Destiel shipper, but I have since become familiar about this fact.
I think the reason a lot of Destiel shippers don't like Sam is because he keeps the lovers apart. Which I think is really stupid. The main theme of the show is family (which is why I have a little hate for a good majority of Season 8, the current season upon writing this) and so Sam has to be there. If not, there wouldn't be a show.
Having a brother does not keep one from having a lover. I am engaged and it doesn't affect my relationship with my family. My fiance doesn't keep me away from my family and so Sam doesn't drive Destiel from happening.
Myself, I like Sam. He's really the 'good' one (ironic, then, that he was Lucifer's vessel) and keeps Dean in check. The only time I didn't like Sam was in a good majority of Season 8 (but that was due to him being written out of character), though I hated not liking him because he's a great character.
Anyways, if you are a Destiel shipper don't hate on all those who aren't keen on seeing Dean and Castiel together. They aren't attacking you and you should respect their opinions. Hell, I'm a friend with someone who isn't a Destiel shipper and finds Castiel to have too much screen time. And, guess what, we don't attack each other for having our own opinions.
So what's up for the next Shipping Confessions? Well, we're going back to Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles to look at my OTP (One True Pairing) of the series.
Not really. I'm not a big slash fan (aka two men being in a romantic relationship), so I don't think I was that biased in that way. However, I quickly became a Destiel shipper after viewing episodes where Dean and Castiel appeared.
Unlike my love of the Camerah ship, being a Destiel shipper is very much the norm. In fact, there seems to be so much support in favor of this ship that it might just as well be canon. Not because everyone agrees with it, but because there are so many people pushing for this ship.
Misha Collins (the actor who plays Castiel) has pronounced Destiel canon. Well, he says that he plays Castiel like his character has romantic feelings for Dean. To us Destiel shippers that makes it canon, but it is not yet official.
One may point out that Dean Winchester is clearly heterosexual (due to how many women he hits on and sleeps with) and so can't be gay. So, therefore, being in a sexual relationship with Castiel (a MALE) is impossible.
I don't think Dean is gay. He does sleep with a lot of women and even had a long term relationship with Lisa Braeden. So, of course, he isn't gay. However, I believe him to be bisexual with a strong preference towards women. This would explain why we haven't seen Dean in a sexual relationship with a man (though there could be those that aren't shown).
Dean has shown slight signs that he's attracted to men (take the Season 8 Episode "Everybody Hates Hitler"). So a relationship between him and Castiel would work. If only looking at Dean's sexuality.
But what about Castiel?
As I said previously: Misha Collins, the actor who plays Castiel, says he plays the character as if he was sexually attracted to Dean. And an actor's views on the character he/she plays is very important.
If you want to disregard Collins' opinion, though, there are many instances throughout the series that show that Castiel loves Dean. If we want to look at a big one, Castiel risks everything for Dean. Castiel leaves his fellow angels to help Dean and Sam to stop the end of the world. After that Castiel even damns himself in the mistaken belief that he's helping Dean.
Castiel hasn't shown a clear sexuality in the series. It's more like he's a child and is slowly learning about how to be human. But it can be safely assumed that he's at least bisexual since he loves Dean.
While I am a big Destiel shipper, there's something that confuses the hell out of me. It seems like a good majority of Destiel shippers (not including me) hate the character of Sam Winchester (Dean's younger brother). I was not aware of this when I became a Destiel shipper, but I have since become familiar about this fact.
I think the reason a lot of Destiel shippers don't like Sam is because he keeps the lovers apart. Which I think is really stupid. The main theme of the show is family (which is why I have a little hate for a good majority of Season 8, the current season upon writing this) and so Sam has to be there. If not, there wouldn't be a show.
Having a brother does not keep one from having a lover. I am engaged and it doesn't affect my relationship with my family. My fiance doesn't keep me away from my family and so Sam doesn't drive Destiel from happening.
Myself, I like Sam. He's really the 'good' one (ironic, then, that he was Lucifer's vessel) and keeps Dean in check. The only time I didn't like Sam was in a good majority of Season 8 (but that was due to him being written out of character), though I hated not liking him because he's a great character.
Anyways, if you are a Destiel shipper don't hate on all those who aren't keen on seeing Dean and Castiel together. They aren't attacking you and you should respect their opinions. Hell, I'm a friend with someone who isn't a Destiel shipper and finds Castiel to have too much screen time. And, guess what, we don't attack each other for having our own opinions.
So what's up for the next Shipping Confessions? Well, we're going back to Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles to look at my OTP (One True Pairing) of the series.
jtrc: Elementary (Part 2)
I finish this two parter by talking about Elementary fans.
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)