The Eternal Heart: Fragile Package 3

The burning smell was about as bad as seeing the metal parts of me. I knew I was metal and that my humanity had been tainted, but seeing proof of that was a thing unto itself. Because when I had proof like this that I wasn’t human, but a hybrid, then I wondered who I had been before. Was I someone that had sided with Skynet or had I been against it?

I put thoughts of the metal showing underneath my burnt skin to the back of my mind. Right now I had to look at the burning chopper wreckage to see if Star and Barnes were there.

“Star! Barnes!” I shouted and looked for any movements or the slightest sounds of a cry for help.

But I heard and saw nothing.

“John...” Katherine said and I quickly turned to her.

She wasn’t in good shape and didn’t have the benefit of being a hybrid to help her. I knelt by her and felt her stomach. If she survived but her twins died, then John would be distracted from the war. He wouldn’t be in good shape if just Katherine died so I didn’t want to imagine his reaction to his unborn children dying.

“Katherine?” I asked and tried to lift her up.

I stopped after she groaned. Shit. How was I supposed to get her somewhere safe? Skynet would probably be coming by soon. Maybe I was trying to carry her the wrong way.

“You need to walk. Can you do that?” I asked.

“John?” Katherine asked and looked at me. “I feel like I fell or-“

“You crashed, Katherine.” I told her. “Skynet will be coming soon and I need to get you to safety.”

“Weren’t there others?”

“Barnes and Star scouted an area ahead and found somewhere safe. They  are waiting for us there.” I lied and figured the truth could come later. Right now I needed her to move as quickly as she could.

As I managed to slowly help her up she said, “John, if I die-“

“You aren’t goin-“ I started to say.

“You never wanted to accept that I could die. I think that’s why you didn’t want to send me on missions. But if I do die I just want you to stay away from Jash. You’re a human, John, and you deserve the love only a human can bring. Promise me.”

“I promise.” I replied since there was no other option. If Katherine was going to confuse me for John, I didn’t have the time to correct her.

“And if you’re going to die, want to do it at another location?” I asked after she didn’t move for a minute.

Katherine’s reply was to smile weakly and I helped her walk. I didn’t know where to go since I hadn’t gotten a good layout of the land while I was crashing. I didn’t know if I was even going in the right direction, but I had no choice. I had to continue going forward.

It was hard work getting anywhere with Katherine in her current condition. Besides it being a pain in the ass to move her, she kept confusing me for John. While I didn’t mind the tidbits of gossip I was able to get from her, some of what she said was a little more personal. Sexual stuff was included in what she was saying. Sometimes she thought that they were just starting their relationship and so didn’t know John’s turn-ons and turn-offs.

While this could’ve been amusing, the fact was that for three hours I had to go with imagining John and Katherine together in detail.

As the fourth hour approached, I saw a broken down building. It seemed to be crumbling but was otherwise stable. Maybe other people had been here recently and so there would be supplies. Water and food to last us a few days was all that we needed. I could always give Katherine my clothes if need be.

“Katherine, we don’t have to go much further.” I told her and her only response was to nod.

I felt her stepping a little more quickly as she realized the walking would end shortly.

As we entered the building, I looked around to make sure that there weren’t any surprises waiting for us. Of course if there was a Terminator my small handgun wouldn’t do much to it. I would have to battle the metal hand to hand and hope that hybrids were well built to fight against other Terminators.

After two minutes nothing came out to get us so I set Katherine by some stairs. I let her down slowly and allowed her to choose how fast we went. After she was sitting relatively comfortably by the stairs, I started looking around in detail.

There was some food and water that would hold us over for the next few days. I then looked for things I could use to make a makeshift bed for Katherine, as this building hadn’t been one for sleeping in before Judgment Day.

As I made Katherine comfortable on the makeshift bed, I started to fully realize a problem. I had known about the problem before, but now things were calm and I could reflect on it.

I couldn’t tell if Katherine’s twins were now dead or if they were going to be born like they should. I stayed up all night with those thoughts going through my head.

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Matt Smith in Terminator: Genesis

While I am not looking forward to Terminator: Genesis, that doesn't mean now and again news about it will intrigue me. I am always going to be hopeful, until I see the film myself, that it'll actually be good. I don't want it to be bad, but I feel it's heading that way.

One bit of news has made me more interested in going to theaters to see the film. That bit of news is that Matt Smith is going to be joining the cast of the reboot. Yes, Matt Smit is going to be in yet another series featuring time-travel.

My Doctor is 9, aka Christopher Eccleston, but Smith's Doctor in Doctor Who was the first one I kept up with. Each week I'd be waiting to see what happened. So when I heard the news that Smith was going to be in Terminator: Genesis I had, and still do have, mixed feelings about it.

On one hand I am going to see what Smith can do outside of Doctor Who. Whenever I read an author like Timothy Zahn who is most famous for his Star Wars novels, I read something non-Star Wars (aka series/work in question) related to see if Zahn (aka author in question) really is a good author. Same thing I like to do with actors. I like to see if I just like their one role or their acting abilities as a whole. With Terminator: Genesis I'll be able to more fully judge Matt Smith.

But on the other hand, Matt Smith will be in Terminator: Genesis. It's a film I don't have much faith in and now my sorry ass will be rushing towards the theater when it comes out. Hell, I don't know if I can calm my fangirl heart down enough to not just run out to the theaters now.

Matt Smith's exact role isn't know yet. What is known is that he'll be playing a character that is close to John Connor.

Jash Talks: Rise of Stucky

I talk about Captain America: The Winter Soldier and Hannibal among other things.

If you would like to send questions/topics for the next live show just comment below and they will be answered!

Also go to my twitter (@jashykins) to look for updates about the next live show!

Almost Human Cancelled

My reaction to the cancellation of Almost Human.

Vesnali 2014 Ending Tonight

Info From HERE

I hope everyone has enjoyed this year's celebration of Vesnali. Myself, I couldn't do the plot due to Subeta acting up. I sent in a ticket and checked the boards but I haven't been able to continue so oh well.

I have, however, been having a great time collecting flowers and coins. So I'll be having a big spending spree later.

While Esther's shop will be staying up all year, the Vesnali items from 2009 to 2011 will be retiring tonight. Which is the same time that Vesnali will end for this year.

Captain America: The Winter Soldier (2014)

Title: The Winter Soldier

Series: Captain America

Directors: Anthony Russo and Joe Russo

Starring: Chris Evans, Samuel L. Jackson, and Scarlett Johansson

Rated: PG-13

Released: 2014

Personal Rating: 5/6

Oscars: N/A

Plot: Steve Rogers struggles to embrace his role in the modern world and battles a new threat from old history: the Soviet agent known as the Winter Soldier.
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The Winter Soldier
Everyone probably knows who the Winter Soldier is so this really isn't a spoiler. Well...it was supposed to be but now it isn't so it's in the grey area of Spoilerville. What I find really heartbreaking about Bucky (aka the Winter Soldier) is that he is fighting for a side just because he's brainwashed. I really hope that Steve is able to help him soon after the end of this movie so that Bucky doesn't need to take the journey to his memory alone. I know that in the comics, at least I've heard, that Bucky takes over as Captain America for a little bit. So I know that Bucky will fight for the right side in the end. To say that I adore all the cute headcanons that people make up about Steve and Bucky is an understatement.

Black Widow
It was great seeing Black Widow (aka Natasha) kicking ass again. Besides her kicking ass, her character was developed even further. She was calm when Steve was highly nervous about being on the run. It was Black Widow who had to make the call between keeping her secrets safe and striking against Hydra. And she made the right call. She was a strong character in this movie and I can't wait to see more of her.

Hydra
Just...wow. Not to spoil what happens, but Hydra is sneaky as Hell. It's a beautiful and scary thing to behold. One of the big info dumps happens when Steve and Natasha uncover a character who we thought was dead. That whole scene is creepy as Hell as you find out exactly what Hydra has been up to since the first Captain America movie. Those who watch Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. will already know how far Hydra has gone, but this scene still serves as filling in a few gaps.

Final Thoughts
This was an awesome movie. There are mid and post credit scenes. So remember to stay until the very end. The ending of this film really makes me wonder in what direction the MCU will now go. I know they'll do what they intend to do well, but I don't know what exactly will happen. And before I go: On your left!

Tobias and Me 6

A few minutes after I gave Cat the ability to morph, I demorphed. If something were going to happen I needed to be in my hawk body. I could morph something else or fly away. But, of course, I couldn’t fly away at once since Cat was with me. I had given her the ability to morph so that I could better protect her. Leaving her alone would be counterproductive.

But what to have her morph? I didn’t want to have her acquire a Vetor for a few reasons. The reasons being that Vetors were sentient and I didn’t know their instincts. Last thing I needed was for Cat to become out of control her first time around. However, having her morph a Vetor could help her fit in better if need be.

I didn’t want to be rude, so I decided asking was out of the question.

“Am I going to morph one of them?” Cat asked and looked at a Vetor.

No, I replied. I don’t know their instincts and I don’t want your first morph to be something I can’t understand. Plus us Animorphs have a rule about morphing sentient beings.

“Why?”

The majority of the group isn’t sure of how much of the animal you get when you acquire it. As a nothlit I’ve noticed the animal mind can change you but it doesn’t grow. It’s instincts and not an actual animal. I’ve tried to explain that to the rest of the group, but they won’t listen.

“And because of that you won’t let me acquire one? Because of a reason you don’t believe?”

I’m representing the group. I’m doing it for their sakes, not mine. Morphing a Vetor could help you fit in, but I’m not going to ask unless I have to.

For a minute we were both silent. I tried to figure out what she could morph. I’d ask a Vetor about the animal life on this planet.

“What about morphing you?” Cat asked and I just looked at her.

You can’t acquire a person who is morphed. I replied.

“But technically you’re a red-tailed hawk since you morph to other creatures.”

Okay, if this doesn’t work I guess you can acquire a Vetor. You just touch me and concentrate on what I mean to you.

Cat put a hand on me and I shivered. The concept that Cat would become me was so odd and foreign that it was just plain creepy.

A calm sensation went through my body and I became very relaxed. It was like the war with the Yeerks didn’t matter and that being far from Earth was funny. There was something so great about this feeling that I didn’t want it to end. I wanted to fight with this calmness because I wouldn’t experience pain ever again.

“Tobias?” Cat asked and I came out of the trance. “You okay? You seemed to go distant there.”

I’m okay.  When you acquire something the animal tends to go into a trance. I explained and didn’t let her know that I didn’t like being removed from the trance. And remember to concentrate on the red-tailed hawk so you’ll morph. Just be prepared for the hawk mind to be there when you finish morphing.

“Can I keep my clothes?”

No. Once we get back to Earth I’ll get you a morphing suit, though. Those we can morph. I paused and turned around. Just tell me when you’re finished morphing. And none of you Vetors look unless you are certain that she’s about to attack you.

The Vetors said something and I just glared at them. When I was human, looking at people didn’t stop them from beating me up. Hawk eyes were something completely different. They looked threatening constantly. Even when I was happy it looked like I was about to murder someone.

The Vetors turned around and didn’t look at either me or Cat.

I worried since I couldn’t guide Cat through the whole morphing process. I couldn’t look and see where she was in the process and so I couldn’t reassure her. Just reassuring her constantly through the whole morphing process wasn’t me. I couldn’t do that and feel honest.

Suddenly I heard a flap of wings and saw Cat flying around. I could imagine the fear in her as her hawk mind felt trapped. I felt like I was trapped, but I had pushed that feeling so far back that I had forgotten about it. Good one, Tobias.

I then remembered that Cat was hearing impaired and so wore a hearing aid. I looked around and didn’t see it. Good, it must have acted like my morphing suit in that it stayed with her. Hopefully the same thing would happen next time she morphed.

Cat! Cat! I shouted and then started to fly after her.

I thought that if I could grab on to her and push her to the ground I could wake up the human side of her. I could remind her of what she was.

Cat! I shouted and then she wobbled slightly in the air before regaining balance.

Tobias? She asked as she landed on the log that I had been on. I’m sorry I just felt tr-

Trapped. I said as I landed next to her. That’s the hawk mind talking. It’s afraid and doesn’t like being below ground. Our…its place is in the trees and in the air. Not underground.

How do you deal with it?

I don’t know. I just focus on myself and what I have to do. The hawk’s mind can guide you, but don’t let it control you.

I won’t. She said and shivered.

I looked at one of the Vetors and said, Vetor, is there a way off of the planet that we can reach?

Over the next hour, by which time Cat had demorphed, the Vetors explained to us how to get to a small Yeerk base on the planet. I was impressed that Cat seemed to pick up the Vetor language better than me. She didn’t have experience with aliens, minus the Skrit Na, and I did.

When we were sure of where to go, Cat morphed back into a hawk and we left the Vetor village.

Wow! Cat shouted when we were finally able to go into the sky. Wow!

I laughed as I could only barley grasp at what she was experiencing. Flying was the best feeling in the world and her first experience, real experience, was flying on an alien planet.

You’re doing great. I said a few times and she laughed back at me.

If I had been human at the moment, I would’ve smiled.

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