An announcement about my Terminator fanfic series.
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Monday, July 16, 2012
Courting of Lillith 5
I was dreaming of something pleasant. John Connor was there and we were making love. We had won the war against Skynet and nothing was wrong now. Marty was still human, I had never killed Jesse Flores, and Sarah Connor was still alive.
Cameron and Sarah Connor were together with none of the complications. None of Sarah hating Terminators.
But the only thing that mattered now was John's lips on mine. I closed my eyes and opened to see that Lillith was kissing me. What the fuck? I pushed her off quickly and tried to remember where I was.
"Sorry." Lillith said.
"It's okay." I replied as I started to recall where and who I was. "It's not that I don't like you, it's just that there's a lot of things coming up now."
"Like what?" She asked and a tear went down her cheek.
"There's a guy. Marty. Well, his real name is Martin Bedell. He killed John Connor but I...have feelings for him."
"What type of feelings?"
"I'd use love but there shouldn't be anything there. He killed a crazed John."
"But John Connor nonetheless."
"Yeah," I replied. "That."
"But that isn't all, is it?" Lillith asked.
I shook my head. "I'm having his twins. Well, making twins with some of his DNA. It's complicated."
"It always is with you." Lillith said and held my hands. "But the question now is: would you be cheating on him if I had sex with you now?"
I thought for a second. But it was hard to think with Lillith by me. Did Marty matter now? No, I wasn't his woman and he wasn't my man. I was with no one. I was alone and could go into any port I wished.
But with Lillith?
As I started with a kiss I had it confirmed that I loved her. As I took off her clothes I realized that some loves could span timelines. And as I made love with her, I knew I couldn't erase her with any amount of lovers.
Cameron and Sarah Connor were together with none of the complications. None of Sarah hating Terminators.
But the only thing that mattered now was John's lips on mine. I closed my eyes and opened to see that Lillith was kissing me. What the fuck? I pushed her off quickly and tried to remember where I was.
"Sorry." Lillith said.
"It's okay." I replied as I started to recall where and who I was. "It's not that I don't like you, it's just that there's a lot of things coming up now."
"Like what?" She asked and a tear went down her cheek.
"There's a guy. Marty. Well, his real name is Martin Bedell. He killed John Connor but I...have feelings for him."
"What type of feelings?"
"I'd use love but there shouldn't be anything there. He killed a crazed John."
"But John Connor nonetheless."
"Yeah," I replied. "That."
"But that isn't all, is it?" Lillith asked.
I shook my head. "I'm having his twins. Well, making twins with some of his DNA. It's complicated."
"It always is with you." Lillith said and held my hands. "But the question now is: would you be cheating on him if I had sex with you now?"
I thought for a second. But it was hard to think with Lillith by me. Did Marty matter now? No, I wasn't his woman and he wasn't my man. I was with no one. I was alone and could go into any port I wished.
But with Lillith?
As I started with a kiss I had it confirmed that I loved her. As I took off her clothes I realized that some loves could span timelines. And as I made love with her, I knew I couldn't erase her with any amount of lovers.
Courting of Lillith 4
Days passed and we stayed in the cave. I know that Lillith was staying so her leg could heal. Why was I staying? I looked to the sleeping form of Lillith. She was the reason to stay here. She was the reason to stay here in the cave trying to get her to join the Resistance.
Why was I in the Resistance? John Connor was the reason. But now he was gone, for the second time, and I couldn't impart those emotions on Lillith. No matter how hard I tried. And I had tried for a few days.
Once we were eating breakfast I decided to try a different tactic. Something I hadn't said in a long time. Something that should've been said to Lillith long ago.>
"I'm sorry." I said and Lillith just looked at me. For the moment, the crazed look in her eyes was gone. "I'm so sorry for what I did. I betrayed myself, I betrayed John, and I betrayed you."
"You said we were going to be together forever." Lillith said, as if in a daze. Well, we had been. Lillith and I had been married at the end of the first war. But we weren't a couple now. Maybe we would never be.
"Yeah, that's how it was supposed to turn out." I replied. "The thing I am most ashamed of is how my actions twisted and turned you."
I thought I had said something bad when Lillith remained silent. But, when I thought all was lost, she nodded. Though I admit there was a bit of surprise in her nod.
"You know it wasn't entirely your fault." Lillith said and I just looked at her. "The hospital was, but what happened to me wasn't. I could've made different choices but I didn't. And now I can't change back."
"Once you choose one way of life you can't ever go back." I replied.
"And did you ever go back?"
"I've made myself look stable but I'm not. I can't go back from that night.">
We continued to talk until that night when we built a fire and just sat near each other. I felt so connected to her and my eyes drifted over and through her. On the outside I saw her damaged body radiating a different type of beauty. It wasn't pure or clean but one of strength.
Inside I imagined myself. Well the reverse of myself. I was a damaged soul in a perfect body while Lillith was a damaged soul in a damaged body. So not quite the reverse of myself.
I realized something then: I loved her still. Truly loved her.
Why was I in the Resistance? John Connor was the reason. But now he was gone, for the second time, and I couldn't impart those emotions on Lillith. No matter how hard I tried. And I had tried for a few days.
Once we were eating breakfast I decided to try a different tactic. Something I hadn't said in a long time. Something that should've been said to Lillith long ago.>
"I'm sorry." I said and Lillith just looked at me. For the moment, the crazed look in her eyes was gone. "I'm so sorry for what I did. I betrayed myself, I betrayed John, and I betrayed you."
"You said we were going to be together forever." Lillith said, as if in a daze. Well, we had been. Lillith and I had been married at the end of the first war. But we weren't a couple now. Maybe we would never be.
"Yeah, that's how it was supposed to turn out." I replied. "The thing I am most ashamed of is how my actions twisted and turned you."
I thought I had said something bad when Lillith remained silent. But, when I thought all was lost, she nodded. Though I admit there was a bit of surprise in her nod.
"You know it wasn't entirely your fault." Lillith said and I just looked at her. "The hospital was, but what happened to me wasn't. I could've made different choices but I didn't. And now I can't change back."
"Once you choose one way of life you can't ever go back." I replied.
"And did you ever go back?"
"I've made myself look stable but I'm not. I can't go back from that night.">
We continued to talk until that night when we built a fire and just sat near each other. I felt so connected to her and my eyes drifted over and through her. On the outside I saw her damaged body radiating a different type of beauty. It wasn't pure or clean but one of strength.
Inside I imagined myself. Well the reverse of myself. I was a damaged soul in a perfect body while Lillith was a damaged soul in a damaged body. So not quite the reverse of myself.
I realized something then: I loved her still. Truly loved her.
Sunday, July 15, 2012
Box Office Sunday (July 15, 2012)
Who is number 1 and why?
Terminator Salvation (Unchained)
A tribute to the movie.
FRINGE - Season 5 Comic-Con Trailer
This makes me happy and sad.
Happy that it looks fucking badass and sad because Fringe is coming to a close.
Happy that it looks fucking badass and sad because Fringe is coming to a close.
Saturday, July 14, 2012
The Walking Dead Season 3 Trailer (Comic-Con)
I cannot tell you how much I am dying for Season 3. I squealed when I saw Merle at the end of the trailer and am glad to see Michone (haven't read the comics yet).
I can see where it could start to go slow but seems like it SHOULD not have the problem of Season 2.
This seems like it's going to be a very interesting Season.
I can see where it could start to go slow but seems like it SHOULD not have the problem of Season 2.
This seems like it's going to be a very interesting Season.
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